As you guys probably know, I've been with my boyfriend for just over two and a half years. I'm pretty open about it to other people, from around here I mean. I'll tell them that I have a boyfriend who lives across the country. I tell them who he is, how old he is. If they ask "do you ever get to see him?" I'll say "not really, but he wants to come up next year for prom." I don't lie and pretend our relationship's non-existant, I just don't tell them the full truth. All my friends know how we met and they approve of it. That's all that matters to me.
Matt on the other hand has hardly mentioned it to kids from where he lives. He isn't ashamed of me, he's just afraid they won't understand. This makes perfect sense to me but at the same time hurt me because I don't understand why I can be so open about it and he can't.
If you have my screen name you know what my profile looks like. I'll copy it into here.
"Sarah Plus Matt Equals
T r u e ♥ L o v e
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
"Aw... grin face! In capital letters!"
I loves my loser
Omnis Ioudas: The Angel of Retribution would so own Charizard
my academy heart: oh snap! i have a crazy ex girlfriend
I <3 you guys lmao"
Basically, I'm not afraid to show it off. Matt used to be the same way at the very beginning of our relationship. He used to write "I Love Sarah" in a code (that wasn't hard to figure out) in his profile. I liked that.
Last night we were both going to sleep and we had already said goodbye when he was like wait a minute, stay. I sat there as he signed off. He has 3 or 4 screen names linked, so he had to change the one he was on in order to do what he was doing. He got online again, then back off, then back on again.
I was wondering right away if he changed his profile but I was like eh I'm just gonna be disapointed, he probably didn't. I looked anyway, and his previously empty profile said "<3Sarahhh<3"
That made me so happy.
He was like "do you know what I did?" and I said yes and thanked him. Then he told me "If anyone offline has a problem with it, then they'll just have to deal with me"
I love him so much. I know that's nothing to be amazingly happy about... but I really am.