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|Friday, February 8th, 2013|
You're all posers with plenty of friends who are doing the "nobody likes me" shit for the image and to get your 500 Facebook friends to leave you comments. "OH MY GOD, THAT'S NOT TRUE. I LIKE YOU." Fucking phonies.
|Thursday, November 4th, 2010|
need lotsa lotsa friends please :P
How long have you been without friends?: most of my life, i guess :P
What is the reason, in your opinion, that you don't have friends?:
i grew up in a conservative family where morales and values are important. also, for some reason i am the favorite of my family and relatives. everyone expected me to be the best in everything i do. because i look different from most of the people in my neighborhood, school, and later on at work. i guess that is how i got their attention. another reason maybe because i look so vulnerable and frail.
i usually get a lot of friends at first! but whenever they try to know me better i don't know why they back away. somehow i think it's because of my upbringing. but i like the way i was brought up and don't want to change. or maybe because i'm just not a party girl who drinks in the club until the wee hours. i once tried to fit in, but in the end i wasn't comfortable because i don't really enjoy the things they do. i guess i'm boring.
i remember having "co-workers\friends" who would want to be close to me just so he can have stories to talk about me to our manager. some said, they just wanted to be "close" to me and be their so called "friends". but i don't really consider people who gives me a list of what they don't like about me every single day they see me - like my hair, my lipstick, my perfume, etc.
i wish to have friends who are normal yet "weird" people like me. who can be comfortable being with the real me and we can both have fun shopping, watching movies, reading, and just hanging around.
can you be my friend?
hi! since we all have been bullied in the past (or present) i bet we all can relate to one another... let us share stories... experiences... and be friends :P
|Monday, June 7th, 2010|
Ever since I was a child, I never had any real friends. I had an abused past and I was bullied all of my school life
until I dropped out of high school. there was a time when I was 14-15 years old where
I thought I had best friends but they turned out to be fake, slutty, the jealous types, and backstabbing.
They looked down on me when I had social anxiety disorder and never left my house.
For 3 years now, I'm pretty much anti-social. I only have one friend left and she lives in a diff state and is busy with her own life.
I tend to get shy and nervous when talking, so ppl gradually make fun of me rather than be friends.
Everyone is rude and immature.
I look normal on the outside but I'm messed up on the inside, it's hard to relate to ppl in real life
when I'm like that
and yea, i think i'm starting to scare some of my friends on LJ with my violent depressing posts. They
barely talk to me anymore except for my one friend that lives in a diff state.
I'm sad and would atleast like to make some friends on Lj =( Current Mood: depressed
|Sunday, May 16th, 2010|
Location:Umm not where i wanted to be :))
How long have you been without friends?:
Umm i don't really know, i guess almost 8 years
What is the reason, in your opinion, that you don't have friends?:
I hate fake people and those who lack manners but i'm surrounded by them. I'm also a freak in this society sooo yeah xD
I would like to have some friends to talk about things though :/ Current Mood: gloomy
|Thursday, January 28th, 2010|
|Wednesday, January 27th, 2010|
The untouchable Mean Girls
This is a rare incidence of someone actually being bullied for being attractive
. Other girls were jealous because this girl was beautiful
, and their boyfriends noticed. This girl was obviously beautiful on the inside too, because she had a sensitive heart. And I believe that was what caused her to take her life. Note that she grew up in Ireland, not immersed in our cut-throat American culture. God Bless Phoebe Prince and know she has a special place in heaven. And to all the bullies at South Hadley High School and all the high schools across America... may you get the punishment that's coming to you. And to the Massachusetts government... get off your butts and go ahead with bullying legislation! Current Mood: discontent
|Saturday, December 5th, 2009|
Getting to know you, getting to know all about you
How long have you been without friends?: Off and on, about 6 years. 4-7th grade, I had no friends at all. 8th grade, I had a few. 9-now/10th, nothing.
What is the reason, in your opinion, that you don't have friends?: I think maybe I'm kind of emotional, and that sort of freaks people out. I'm severely paranoid, too. I'm also really, er...I guess you could say "unattractive"? And, well, considering the school I go to (where unless you're either gorgeous or incredibly wealthy, you're a loser) that's a big factor.
Anything else you need to know? Well...I dunno. I'm a borderline alcoholic, if that counts?
|Monday, November 23rd, 2009|
A better person
x-posted to my journal
To my ex-friend,
I apologize for the nasty entry I posted in my journal awhile back. Although you disappointed me for the 2nd time and put me and my family in danger of being attacked by a psycho, I acknowledge I was partly to blame.
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't rid my life of a certain person I didn't want around in the first place. I was trying to live my life, but this person kept latching onto me and getting into all my personal business. I had no emotional attachment to him whatsoever, but he did to me, and did psycho-stalker things like take all the numbers out of my phone. I finally got rid of him through the court system. Now I'm married with a baby boy. I'm a better person now, and some of my biggest values are loyalty and trust,
|Wednesday, November 18th, 2009|
Massachusetts finally doing something right?
Like most other places, Massachusetts has consistently done a shitty job at controlling bullying in schools. This may be about to change, according to the following 2 newspaper articles:Support Swells for Anti Bully LegislationStudents Urge Mass Lawmakers to Act on Bullying
If these bills actually pass, I'll have a new found respect for my home state.
It's interesting to read the comments on the articles left by people. You can easily tell who the former bullies are, as they are livid at the prospect of the bill passing. They are also the ones minimizing bullying as "a part of life".
It will be interesting to see what will happen if the bill goes through. There will be a lot
of kids being reprimanded. There is also a misconception that bullies grow up to be criminals that go to jail. Not true. Many grow up to be lawyers, pharmacists... even ... gulp... police officers... in my hometown! And yes, they continue to be bullies as adults. If they're seriously punished for their cruel behavior as children, there is a chance they may put an end to it... if only out of fear.
|Saturday, July 4th, 2009|
Location: Hell, it appears.
How long have you been without friends?: Always.
What is the reason, in your opinion, that you don't have friends?: I'm too damn shy, grr! Plus, the crazies I like as friends are too hard to find... sad face. Current Mood: cynical
|Friday, May 1st, 2009|
Location: the air
How long have you been without friends?: i was for quite some time, then i learned how to bullshit confidence and started a little bit of a cult.
What is the reason, in your opinion, that you don't have friends?: i'm a psychopath
i'm a scary bitch. you'll probably like me though.
|Thursday, April 23rd, 2009|
"A Nerdy Bully" - WTF?
Anyone who's been watching the news lately must have heard about the alleged "Craigslist killer". He's a medical student, pretty-boy-looking type who also happens to live about 50 minutes from where I grew up.
People who went to high school with him described him as "a nerdy bully". You don't typically hear those two words describing a single person, but here's the article for anyone interested: Accused Craiglist killer was a nerdy high school "bully"
|Friday, March 27th, 2009|
New guy I guess:)
How long have you been without friends?:Since puberty
What is the reason, in your opinion, that you don't have friends?: Probably because I expect too much from a friend
Additional information: I am obese, bisexual, smart, weird, somewhat effeminate and I am completely undesireable.
My main problem is that I am extremely selfish with my time. I crave isolation. Mostly because of my sexuality and personal activities requiring privacy. I have lived here in Arizona and have yet to have any visitor for four years. It gets even more complicated I guess, but I cannot be too specific here. The bottom line is I am a loser and the only time someone touches me is when I get my haircut. Current Mood: depressed
|Thursday, March 26th, 2009|
How long have you been without friends?: My whole life
What is the reason, in your opinion, that you don't have friends?: I act and look older than my age. I like math. *shrugs*
I don't know what else to say.
Hmm... well, I was recently admitted to an asylum for hearing voices/ suicide attempt/ mood swings.
I Self harm.
Uhhh, I'm a huge nerd.
And that's about it.
|Saturday, March 21st, 2009|
|Thursday, March 12th, 2009|
Fuck Chris Brown
I just realized that the Chris Brown/Rihanna saga that is all over the news is especially meaningful to me. When I was 13 years old, my first "boyfriend" slapped me across the face...HARD. So hard in fact that I heard loud ringing in both ears. I never forgot it, I just suppressed it. But reading about his endeavor everywhere I look brings all my anger back to the forefront again. You never forget stuff like that and it affects how you look at things for the rest of your life.
I will never listen to or buy Chris Brown's music ever again. Girls, if you have any kind of respect for yourself neither will you. And guys, if you have any respect for girls, promise to beat the shit out of Chris Brown if you ever see him... or any
guy that would lay his hand on a girl.
|Thursday, February 26th, 2009|
Having no friends is a very bad thing. I now truly know the feeling of having no friends. You feel so isolated. I wish I didn't have to but I need to fix my body. Until then I don't know if I can really have friends again. I never had to deal with something this bad before. I basically changed my future. I was hoping I would get better. But I won't I researched my times over and right now I am just so tired. I remember I had some good friends but after these years I've basically lost them as friends both for what I did and what I did to myself now. I can't look at them and be happy with them anymore. Truth is I was never truly happy but at least being with them did let me distract myself for the time being. Now I'm just stuck. Stuck here. I just wish someone would tell me anything can be fixed. But sadly that is not true. I can't do this anymore. I just wish I could go back. I know if I could this time I would have actual friends or at least be satisfied enough with my life. I'm just so far off from that. 70% would be nice. I'm nowhere even near 50%.
|Wednesday, November 26th, 2008|
I never thought I'd say this
I used to be an avid poster here. I look back on my posts from around 2004, and I damn near sounded like I hated people. At the time I might have. But I have actually changed over the years and don't feel I can relate to the person I was anymore. And man... looking back on what I wrote... that's a good thing.
I've never been the type that would go back to a group and say "HaHa I'm better than all of you now". I've always been annoyed by those types, especially when I was still suffering. All I'm saying is I'm a different person than I once was.
I don't have *tons* of friends, but I have a few very important ones. A lot of people still don't like me, but the difference is now I don't care as much. And that difference has had the biggest influence on my outlook and life.
A lot about me has evolved over the years. My looks (which I won't deny is a huge influence), my tastes in everything from music to television, and my personality. I also feel like I've learned more as I've gotten older, and that's definitely helped. I think I'm becoming the person I'm supposed to be. Looking at pictures, I'm even carrying myself differently than I used to. Basic Training didn't hurt either.
I've never actually figured out the reason I didn't have friends most of my life. A lot of it had to do with my looks, but I'm sure my attitude and standoffishness didn't help. I've seen 300 lb girls receive a better reception than me, so I know I can't blame everything on looks.
I will admit I haven't been the greatest friend to people who have tried to maintain a friendship with me. Being solo most of my life, I failed to recognize the importance of other people's feelings. I slacked off at calling people back, left people hanging, and pissed others off in the process. I never meant to hurt anyone by it. I'm just not used to having any responsibility toward others. I'm slowly changing though.
The whole point of this post is... things do change. I was one of the worst cases here. I'm not perfect now, but I can say I'm doing better.
I'm still interested in posting here... so if anyone is out there... holla.
|Tuesday, November 25th, 2008|
Does anyone even use LJ anymore?
Livejournal used to be such a high-traffic site. Now it seems dead. I wonder if there's a new blogging site that everyone's using. If anyone knows, tell me!