Wow, this is such a big thing for us. "Our" apartment! And it's so nice! Brand new! Already my life with you is amazing! This is huge baby. Like mega huge. This is the big leagues. Our own home, our own lives. No depending on anyone else, just each other.
And when I go all the way to VA, 1387.18 miles according to MapQuest, all I'll have is you. I don't know anyone else there, but you know what? That's okay. I kind of want it that way. I need a chance to start new, and I just plain want to be with you. Just you. I don't need anyone else. I'm excited about the chance to go somewhere new, leave my past behind, and start what I know is going to be wonderful with you. I am ecstatic that I am being allowed the chance to leave all my pain and all the memories behind. This is like wiping my slate clean.
This is a second chance in so many ways. A second chance for you and I, a second chance for myself both in body and spirit. This, I think, is exactly what I need. I need to be in a new environment with you - the one person I know loves me truly and wants me there. Somewhere where I won't feel like a burden. Somewhere where everywhere I turn doesn't contain something with a painful memory. Somewhere where I can grow into my own person without anyone holding me back. Somewhere with you - where I can get the love and reassurance and support I so desperately need. And somewhere where I can do the same for you and hopefully make your life better. The best it can be. I want that more than anything.
Just please, don't give up on me when I cry for weeks because I miss my brother, or my house, or my family, or even something as stupid as a lamp, because I will do that. I will get upset over stupid things, and I will cry, and I will probably even question whether what we are doing is right. I will do that, and it won't be a reflection of you or how I feel for you. I think though, that you know me well enough to probably already expect me to do all of that and more. No one knows me like you do and that's why I know this is right.
You told me that you just want to make all my dreams come true. Well, my love, you already have. Just by loving me the way that you do, the way that I love you, and by wanting to make me your wife you have. You have already fulfilled my very heart's desire. Hell, I wouldn't care if we were living in the midst of the ghetto as long as we were together and we had what we have. I don't need big expensive material things to make me happy. All I need is your love, your kiss, and your heart. That's all. Oh, and your name seals the deal. ^_^
This year of distance has been hard on the both of us, I know. There have been times where I really thought I wasn't going to make it, but you never ceased in your hope and faith. You never gave up. On me, or on us. You've never given up on me, even when everyone else has. Even when I have. You are fantastic. And this distance is almost over, opening up a new journey for us. One where we can hold each other's hands along the way. I can't wait.
I always knew that you were going to turn into a wonderful man, but I have to say, you've already surpassed my wildest imagination. I can only wait to see what the next 50 years or so have to hold. You are amazing and I'm still unsure of how I got so lucky.
You are the light at the end of my tunnel and I'm finally almost there.
I love you.