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Story Like a Scar - The New Amsterdams

You tell me I’ve got better things to do
But I’m all spent
Tally up the time that I’ve been waiting here for you
Haven’t seen you in so long
I blink, and then you’re gone

Had a conversation with a friend
You’re a big part
He’s in that place with you that
I used to be in
Story like a scar
A novel’s worth so far that you’ll write

I shouted the thing
I’m drowning in the drink
And I get lost in the memories
And so it seems
All too common themes
You got lost, you got a way out

I had a dream the other night
We were good then
And you told me all about the better place you’re in
I know you just too well
It’s hard for me to tell if you’re lying

I shouted the thing
I’m drowning in the drink
And I get lost in the memories
And so it seems
All too common themes
You got lost, you got a way out
I shouted the thing
I’m drowning in the drink
You got lost, you got a way out
I shouted the thing
I’m drowning in the drink
You got lost, you got a way out

Just One...

Dearest <3,

Wow, this is such a big thing for us. "Our" apartment! And it's so nice! Brand new! Already my life with you is amazing! This is huge baby. Like mega huge. This is the big leagues. Our own home, our own lives. No depending on anyone else, just each other.

And when I go all the way to VA, 1387.18 miles according to MapQuest, all I'll have is you. I don't know anyone else there, but you know what? That's okay. I kind of want it that way. I need a chance to start new, and I just plain want to be with you. Just you. I don't need anyone else. I'm excited about the chance to go somewhere new, leave my past behind, and start what I know is going to be wonderful with you. I am ecstatic that I am being allowed the chance to leave all my pain and all the memories behind. This is like wiping my slate clean.

This is a second chance in so many ways. A second chance for you and I, a second chance for myself both in body and spirit. This, I think, is exactly what I need. I need to be in a new environment with you - the one person I know loves me truly and wants me there. Somewhere where I won't feel like a burden. Somewhere where everywhere I turn doesn't contain something with a painful memory. Somewhere where I can grow into my own person without anyone holding me back. Somewhere with you - where I can get the love and reassurance and support I so desperately need. And somewhere where I can do the same for you and hopefully make your life better. The best it can be. I want that more than anything.

Just please, don't give up on me when I cry for weeks because I miss my brother, or my house, or my family, or even something as stupid as a lamp, because I will do that. I will get upset over stupid things, and I will cry, and I will probably even question whether what we are doing is right. I will do that, and it won't be a reflection of you or how I feel for you. I think though, that you know me well enough to probably already expect me to do all of that and more. No one knows me like you do and that's why I know this is right.

You told me that you just want to make all my dreams come true. Well, my love, you already have. Just by loving me the way that you do, the way that I love you, and by wanting to make me your wife you have. You have already fulfilled my very heart's desire. Hell, I wouldn't care if we were living in the midst of the ghetto as long as we were together and we had what we have. I don't need big expensive material things to make me happy. All I need is your love, your kiss, and your heart. That's all. Oh, and your name seals the deal. ^_^

This year of distance has been hard on the both of us, I know. There have been times where I really thought I wasn't going to make it, but you never ceased in your hope and faith. You never gave up. On me, or on us. You've never given up on me, even when everyone else has. Even when I have. You are fantastic. And this distance is almost over, opening up a new journey for us. One where we can hold each other's hands along the way. I can't wait.

I always knew that you were going to turn into a wonderful man, but I have to say, you've already surpassed my wildest imagination. I can only wait to see what the next 50 years or so have to hold. You are amazing and I'm still unsure of how I got so lucky.

You are the light at the end of my tunnel and I'm finally almost there.

I love you.

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2 Urban Romance Songs, girl2boy song & boy2girl song- "Cater 2 U" (DestinysChild) & "Gotta Make It"

Dear everyone,

Often, when people think of romance music, they think of traditional romance songs.  Umm... so I just wanted to take a moment and share (the first few lines of....) a couple of non-traditional, very detailed, urban romance songs that I like a lot, not just for their nice sound, but also because the lyrics and words touch my heart and they tell of a part of society that isn't expressed often.  I just want to take a moment to say I like these two songs.  I think they are both lovely and full of emotion.  One is a girl2boy song and the other is a boy2girl song.  If you have a love song that you want to share that reminds you deeply of love, or reminds you of the one you miss, feel free to share it on the comment section of my journal or on the comment section of this community.  Thanks.

Love you all,

Thanks for listening,


The first song is titled "Cater 2 U" by Destiny's Child - (I love this song)

Destiny's Child - Cater 2 U Lyrics

[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You, My Life Would Be Purposeless
Without You (Yeah)
If I Want It (Got It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter

[Full song lyrics found on my journal by clicking here]

The second song is "Gotta Make It" by Trey Songz (feat. Twista)  which I just heard today for the first time and liked it from the moment he said "shaaaaaaaawty."  :o)

Just Gotta Make It (alright)
Just Gotta Make It
Just Gotta Make It (alright)
Just Gotta Make It
Just Gotta Make It (alright)
Just Gotta Make It

Shawwwwwwwwwwty (shawty), all I got is a dollar and a dream
Is ya gonna roll wit me? (roll wit me)
You see I've tried a 9 to 5, and it just don't fit me
(fit me) (no)
I can get us out the hood and have us livin good
Ya feel me? (oh do feel me)
But I aint leavin here if you ain't wit me
(If you ain't wit me)
Cause girl a suit wit a smile that don't fit me
Taking a bus for some miles is gon kill me
(that's gon kill me)

I'm tryin' to turn it around,
start this thing from the ground
and as long as you're down I know,

Looking at you day after day, I know I
Just Gotta Make It (alright) Just Gotta Make It

[Full song lyrics found on my journal by clicking here]

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ever feel like you can't express your intense emotions...without offending someone? thats why...

dear friends,

ever feel like you can't express your intense emotions...without offending someone? thats why... I love when I'm in love with that special person... cuz then I can finally express all my intense emotions about all kinds of stuff in the world.... to someone without havin to worry that they're offended.

if for no other reason, thats one of the greatest things about being in love,

-love for the people,


"somewhere out there" there is one we can all talk to with our defenses down...


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I just want to express my love for everyone who is choosing to stay away from Starbucks. Much love!

Dear friends,

K... and I are activists and I love her for the way she looks out for others and she cares for all people all over the world.

I just want to take this moment to express my mystical, and appreciative love for everyone who is choosing to stay away from Starbucks.  I love each and everyone of you deeply because I know sometimes your friends try to convince you to go, but your love for others keeps you out of Starbucks.

Starbucks exploits, abuses, tortures, steals and worst of all they promote internationally networked exploitation amongst the many multinational-corporate stores in which they breed like a virus, such as Barnes & Nobles, Borders, Safeway etc.,.

Here you will find an article, which details Starbucks many abuses.  It would make a good love letter to send to the one you love who doesn't understand why Starbucks is so bad.

Here you will find and article, at the bottom of which lists ways to take action against Starbucks from everywhere

Deep love for you all, your actions make a difference, real lovin for everyone,

love for the people,



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Dear Whoever,

Why can't I just sleep for weeks?

I'm so sick of depression.

I've found a way to deal though.

Just shut down.

Let nothing affect you anymore, neither positive or negative.

Hope for nothing, look forward to nothing, expect nothing.

I think this hardening, this hollowing, could work.

Tried everything else I suppose.

The end.


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Dear Mom,

I wish that you would support me in going to church. I mean it's not like we don't believe in the same thing, because we do. That's what I don't understand. We believe the same thing, yet you don't like it when I go to church. I wish that you would realize how much you hurt me. I wish that you would realize how much this is hurting out relationship with each other. But it's not like we even had a relationship before anyways. I don't understand why you can't just be happy for me. Why do you have to be difficult? Why do you make me fight? Why do you make me cry? Why can't you be thankful that your daughter wants to go to church instead of doing drugs and partying? I just don't get it.

Your only daughter

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