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Hello, everyone. I searched for "prayer" in the interests box because I really feel like I could use one right now.

Yesterday afternoon, my dog that I've had for 9 years was put to sleep. He was old and suffering, and it's good that he's finally free from that pain, but I still can't stop crying. He was an important part of our family and it hurts me to see him gone.

My great-grandmother was just taken out of hospice, I suppose her liver functions were improving. However, she still can't live by herself. I've not seen her that many times but she always sends everyone in my family five dollars for their birthday, and I mean everyone. She's always thinking of others, and I know she thinks of me. I don't want her to go back to hospice.

I can't seem to find contentment in life anymore. It's almost like nothing ever changes, or something takes a turn for the worst. I'm afraid that I'll grow up and remain alone. I don't know what it is but guys seem to ignore me, and it doesn't seem like that will ever change. I had a small crush on a guy in my youth group, and, fully aware of this fact, my best friend started going out with him. This is the second time she has done this, knowing when I've had my heart set on somebody. I don't know what's wrong with me; I'm not as assertive as she is. But it just feels like I'm not good enough for anybody.

I broke down last night. I prayed. I laid on my floor and cried, singing "Here I Am to Worship." I couldn't stop. I got so little sleep that I stayed home from school today. My head still hurts from how many tears I shed last night.

God, when are you going to let something good happen to me? Will my whole life be one long loss and disappointment?

This is quite a way for me to introduce myself. I'm Lara, and I've gone to church all my life. Technically, I'm a Baptist. However, my life is not nearly as together as most people think it is. I hope that one day it'll be easier for me to share my emotions instead of playing the strong person for others who can't hold them in.

Thank you all for making this community. It really made my day to see that there's a group of people out there who absorb all this and care.
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Update on Hannah

A few days ago I posted asking for prayer for cancer patient, Hannah Sobeski. Yesturday Hannah was placed in the hospital again for a fever of 103.7, a hemoglobin of 6, and low blood counts. Today her temperature was up and down but is now at a reasonable level. Please continue praying for her!

Pray for Hannah.

Please pray for 17 year old Hannah Sobeski. Hannah was supposed to be a senior at Dorman Highschool in Spartanburg, South Carolina this year. March of this year Hannah was diagnosed with Sarcoma (a type of cancer). She had chemotherapy done at M. D. Anderson Cancer Center in Houston, TX. She returned home on September 12th. On October 14th Hannah was crowned Homecoming Queen of Dorman Highschool. Sadly though, on October 15th the results of a CT scan came back and Hannah's tumor has doubled in size. She basically has been sent home to die. But with prayer there is hope. God doesnt need Chemo to help Hannah. Please tell your friends and family to pray for Hannah and her family!

For more information on Hannah visit her caringbridge site at: http://www.caringbridge.org/cb/inputSiteName.do;jsessionid=A4E548E5872472BBC567D245BAA4F2D0

Thank You.
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I want to add a prayer for my professor, Dean. He may be losing both of his parents this weekend... his mother had pneumonia and on top of that she fell down the stairs, and we found out today that his father had a massive heart attack.

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Hey all,

Okay, I am sure some if not most of you know about World Youth Day going on. Well, I did not go, i have a fear of traveling, but 115 teens from my chruch went. I have had this horrible feeling something is going to go wrong. Like, when they left, i felt like I would never see them again. They left days ago now and nothign has happened but the feeling is still there. Could you all pray for them? Thank you.



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dear god,
how could you do this to me. why do you always have to taunt me like this? first you give me a great older sister, then you unfairly take her away from me, now you give me a gift of a great boyfriend and you put college in my path.
you suck.

going through the old prayers that i have made, i thought i would update you with this one. things have worked out, i am with a much better person than i could imagine that i could ever end up with. in retrospect i always seem to realize the broader picture, the way things work out for the best, i really should stop getting in his way and just enjoy the ride, because my lord really is taking care of me.

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please pray for me that i'm not pregnant.

i know that this is very selfish of me. but i dont want to make the desicion that will determine my life like this. i have enough stress deciding what i want to do with my life, without having to factor in if i'm going to abort a child or not. (if you are pro-life, please dont comment trying to "show me the light" i have been pro-choice for a long time and will continue to be pro-choice for even longer.)

so please, just say a prayer for me.


ps- i'm not asking for this prayer because i was stupid and didnt have my boyfriend wear a condom. he wore one, and i'm on the pill. however, it is the first month (because i ran out and had to start over) and im on anti-biotics right now for sinusitus. it was truely an accident.
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