Setting: Peter's place
Leading a double life was hard. I was quickly becoming less than pleased with it all. I wanted to just say Hello, this is me running away to the dark side. But not actually, I still wanted to keep my friends. I just didn't enjoy having to go back and forth between the two sides. Why me?
And worst of all, Amaranta was affected by all this. I was constantly doing Order work or spying, and it was just taxing! It was hard to reconcile my two lives, and I hated that I couldn't spend more time with Amaranta. She was the first girl that really liked me. Well, the only too. I tidied up the flat as best as I could, but it was a poor showing. I didn't keep it up well, there wasn't a lot of time for that these days.