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Dear Carl,

I think I'm in love with you. It means my Dad was right, but to Hell with that. You and I are never going to go anywhere, so it doesn't seem like too much of a problem, right?

I won't make any sort of move on you, because I love Jon and I know he is your best friend. Neither of us will ever hurt him. I just want to acknowledge these feelings somewhere. Then maybe they will stop keeping me up at night.

With love,

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Dear Mute
I hate your boyfriend. He's so disgusting, he smells, he does not shower or brush his teeth. He is not funny and completely repulses me in every way.  He always makes you sad and I have no idea what you see in him.

Dear Apple/iPod/iTunes/you get the picture




Dear whoever may be reading this post,

HELP! I reset my iPod to factory settings because itunes wasn't recognising it, and itunes STILL won't see it. I'm actually in tears! ='(


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dear p,

i find it oddly ironic that as much as you're "scared" of me hurting you
you fucking hurt me everyday
do you realize you use me like a convience store?
and don't talk to me or hang out with me unless i can get you what you want?
maybe you do, and that's your intentions.
maybe i'm playing to fool, and this whole "you're going to hurt me" thing is just an act because i'm dumb enough to star in this fucking mind-game sitcom.
and the truth is, i couldn't even hurt you ever again.
but i'm glad you're opening my eyes and letting me see myself as the door mat i've become.


dear wendy,

why after leaving me to raise myself at 12
do you suddenly feel the need to protect me?
i hope one day
when you fucking look back
youll see my fucking face and cry because
everything i am
you were NEVER fucking there when i needed you.

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my funny valentine,
i don't need a super relationshippy thing.
i don't need to hang out with you every second of every day.
i like how things are now between us.  everything is right.
i don't mind doing the casual dating thing.
i don't mind you being busy.
as long as i know how you feel about me.
and i'm pretty sure i do.

i'm sure you meant what you said when you said it, but now that it's today and you're in a more rational state of mind, you're rethinking.
and i know you're going to rethink and rethink until the next time we talk.
try not to.
what we have is awesome.  i love hanging out with you and talking to you.
and oooohhhh lord do i love fucking you all night long.
do you really want to be with me?  i hope that's something you meant.
we can be together without being so "in a relationship."
i think the word "relationship" is scary to us....it has so many connotations.
it's the inseparableness...the loss of identity...the loss of autonomy.
i know that rules scare you.

my funny valentine, we don't have to be like everyone else.  we can make our own rules, or have none at all.
i just like you too much to let this go.
and i feel like you feel the same way.
i hope you do.


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you! you people on my flist! KNOCK IT OFF!

i'm tired of you people updating every single day posting about how you restyled your hair, bought a new gadget, and especially the posts with endless pics of you in your new socks, new t-shirts, bras, jeans, hatandglovesandscarf... I DON'T CARE! NO ONE DOES!

and you! the person who updates every day about how much you hate your dad... if it bothers you that much, LEAVE! you have a job, you have several thousand dollars in the back. he doesn't abuse you. if you're really that unhappy, get out. but of course that would mean the stream of sympathy from your friends would trickle to and end and your dad would quit buying you TVs and computers and iphones and ipods and other gadgets that you don't need. get out or shut up.


Dear indie/scene kids/hipsters/whoever else thinks they're too good for 'mainstream' music,


No, seriously. There are two main problems with your policy of not listening to anything that makes the radio:

1) It makes you look and sound pretentious to sit there with your mates and bitch about the fact that such and such a band got played on the radio. NO ONE CARES. In fact, it's a good thing that a good band gets played on the radio (Enough dreadful ones do, so why not good ones?). Because, let's face it, music, is a business, no matter how much people say that they're in it for the songs rather than the money, they still have to pay the bills. Sure, it's an awesome job, the best in the world, but it is also tough, expensive and tiring. So yes, I'm perfectly cool with bands getting a bit of a break. I mean, you talk about bands selling out, but define that for me. For me, selling out is when a previously good band starts making bad music with the aim of it being commercially successful. Now where, in that definition, is the word 'radio' or, god forbid, 'tv'? You claim to be fans, but are you really if you just drop them once everyone else gets into them? Surely, you should feel PROUD of an amazing band that is doing so well. I know that I do! Besides, if someone who hasn't heard of a band before hears them on the radio, and genuinely loves the music, then why can't they be allowed to love the band as much as the person who has been to every concert since the beginning? It's hardly their fault that they hadn't heard of the band before! This kind of behaviour makes you seem elitist, stuck-up and snobby.

2) You are stereotyping yourselves. You claim that you don't want to be pigeonholed, that you don't want people to judge you...well chill out a bit! You'll be liked one hellva lot more! Also, let's say that by chance, you like a song that gets played on the radio (That you didn't 'discover' 6 months before), what do you do then? Call it a 'guilty pleasure'? Pretend that you hate it? I mean, come on! In 5 years time, tops, you'll realise what a fool you were and you'll have missed out on some great pop songs! Don't do that! 

By all means, listen to 'unfashionable' bands, please, do, but don't be so mean to people who don't (Or can't) go to indie gigs or spend all their time looking for new bands on myspace. It's not cool, it's not clever, and it's not 'alternative'.

So if you don't mind me, I'm going to go to my room and sing along shamelessly to Taylor Swift, Fall Out Boy and other such 'mainstream' rubbish. Why? Because it's bloody good music.

From, me.

P.S.: Here's a quote for you. “If for one minute you think you're better than a sixteen year old girl in a Green Day t-shirt, you are sorely mistaken. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favorite band. You wore their shirt, and sang every word. You didn't know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about.”
-Gerard Way
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