Your not o fucking kay.
Nope.. thats just it.
Stop lying to yourself.
Your not ok with him likeing Olta..
Your not ok with the repsonse,
"I dont like you like you like me... and im sorry"
Your not ok having to deal with the fact that no matter what connection you felt with him.. no matter how strong your feelings were for him, he still lead you on, and he probably dosent give two shits.
Your not ok with the fact you still like him..&you cant keep your fucking mind off him.
Your not ok with your mom trying to keep you from hanging out with Jessika.
Your not ok with having to keep this a secret from Jessika. One of your mother fucking best friends.
Your not ok with the fact that you will never look at your mom the same.
Your not ok with all the changes.. happening so fast, so soon.
Your not ok with the fact your starting to notice you hate talking to your one true best friend.. the girl you grew up with.
Your not ok noticing that shes not the only thing that has changed...
Your not ok with the fact that me not being able to hang out with Jessika= not being able to hang out with Kelsey as much.
DOES MY FUCKING MOM WANT TO TAKE THIS OUT ON EVERYONE?
Your not okay. &you never will be.
What will make you okay?...
Being able to call him mine.
He is what i want. Nothing else in the world..
no one elses arms in the world.. besides his.
God your so stupid.
I know your going to hate to hear... "i told you so"
&thats probably all your going to hear for a while.
You still are my Romeo.. even if you think so or not.
No matter how many times you broke my fucking heart,
I almost forget about it all, when i start thinking about those cute things you do.
Why do you do this to me?
Maybe i should forget about you..
I'll try, it just seems like i am the cause to all your problems..
Im upset the most about the fact that...
nevermind, i cant say it.
I wont admit it to myself.. nontheless, even you.
I told myself im done wasting my time on you,
Remember that one time in gym, you asked if i thought you were an asshole..
why would you ask me that?
You should of known i was lying when i told you.. "..of course not"
You should of known that i could never call you an asshole to your face,
its easiest saying it when your taking it out on the keyboard when your angry.
THOMAS QUINN YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE.
See, told you so.
Remember that night.. i told you i had a couple questions to ask you,
i forgot one..
Thomas Quinn, why are you gay?
&Why do you like to post things all over livejournal?
Why do i like a cute little curly haired kid like you?
WHATS MY DEAL WITH CURLY HAIR?
Whats my deal with those beautiful blue eyes of yours.
Why did you lie to me when you said you werent comparing me to Olta?
You fucking asshole.m jkldfkl;jdfkl;gjl;dfgjl;dfjgkl;dfg
I wish i could of kissed you while i had the chance,
so you would have the cursed taste of me on your lips.. forever.
Wish me luck on trying to get over you.
...&I will try and be kind when I ask you to leave.