i know in the past ive caused you pain, and im sorry. and ill always be sorry til the day i die. and i hate this pen im holding, because i should be holding you. i hate this paper under my hand because it isnt you. i even hate this letter because its not the whole truth. because the whole trueth is so much more than a letter can even say. if you wanna hate me, go ahead. if you wanna burn this letter, do it. you could burn thw whole world down. you could tell me to go to hell. id go. if you wanted me to. and id send you a letter from there.