February 3rd, 2009

nph.

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Dear L,

I seriously want to vomit because of you. You have a girlfriend now? What the fuck? I invested four and half fucking years in you and never got to be your girlfriend and then you tell me that you're in love with me and want to marry me and now you have a fucking girlfriend. I totally feel like I'm going to throw up because I'm so angry right now. Why wasn't I good enough to be your girlfriend during those four and a half years I put into you but some girl is good enough now? Bull shit dude. Worst part is I still think about you a lot. I can not fucking believe this.

-Casey
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I think this describes how I feel more than any words right now. You are one of my best friends. Your fiancee is another one of my best friends. You and my boyfriend are best friends. Every look between us is wrong.

Down to you,
You're pushing and pulling me down to you.
But I don't know what I,
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself.
From saying something that I should have never thought.
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself.
From saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you.

You're pushing and pulling me down to you,
But I don't know what I want,
No I don't know what I want.

You got it, you got it,
Some kind of magic.
Hypnotic, hypnotic,
You're leaving me breathless.
I hate this, I hate this,
You're not the one I believe in.
With God as my witness.

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought.
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you.

You're pushing and pulling me down to you.
But I don't know what I want.
No I don't know what I want.

Don't know what I want.
But I know it's not you.
Keep pushing and pulling me down,
But I know in my heart it's not you.

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought.
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought of you.
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you.
I know but now I know what I want, I want, I want,
Oh no, I should have never thought.

-Paramore, "I Caught Myself"