I've finally realized that I'm never going to NOT feel anything for you. But I am getting over you, and I realize that you could never be the best thing for me, no matter how much you make me smile and laugh and no matter how happy and safe you make me feel. You will always be my first love, nothing can change that, and I will always remember you, but continuing on loving you was slowly tearing me apart and keeping me from living my life and finding another boy out there to care about.
I love you,
i hateeee you so much. i really, really do. i want to take her away from youu. i want you to die. i know that sounds so terrible but i do. you're so bad to her. she's an amazing person and if you make her believe that she isn't then you don't deserve a daughter like her. i really hope you realize what a terrible mother you've been one day. i hate your guts.
i know you read some of my letters in this community to you and i'm so sorry if you read stuff from when i was mad at you. whatever i said, idk, i'm scared to look back and read it, but that's not how i feel about you.. i told you i say things i don't mean when i'm angry. i love you so much and i just need to let it out sometimes. it's not even meant to be towards you.. that's why i don't say any of it to you. i just need to take it out on something. idk. i'm so sorry. i love you.