I'm living in your letters.. Breathe deeply from this envelope

dear pageup,
To be honest, for a while I thought I wanted to be with you just becuase I wanted to be with someone, and my friends think you'd be good for me. And though, sometimes I do really wanna be with someone, and sure, thats probbably why I'd like to be with you..

I mostly want to be with you because I think I could really really really like you, and you could really really really like me, maybe, if you tried, if you wanted.

I want it.

capslock.

Garrett,
I try to get over you, but it seems like the more I try to forget you, the more I miss you and remember you. I've actually started to like another guy, but he's no you. That's how much you have messed me up. I compare every boy to you. Every single fucking one. I am finally acknowledging that I will never be over you, even if I want to. And that if we're supposed to end up together (which I am hoping we will), then so be it. I love you.



He's the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

RawrImaKittenn (9:45:57 PM): Remember when you said that if a girl ever told you that you had too many guitars you would show her the door?
sn disclosed for personal reasons (9:46:23 PM): yes
RawrImaKittenn (9:46:45 PM): If I told you that, would you show me the door?
sn disclosed for personal reasons (9:47:00 PM): see, I don't think you would though
RawrImaKittenn (9:47:08 PM): I would never.
sn disclosed for personal reasons (9:47:11 PM): cause you'd probably play them too
RawrImaKittenn (9:47:12 PM): But that's not the point.
RawrImaKittenn (9:47:27 PM): Kyle and I were arguing about it and he said he didn't think you would
RawrImaKittenn (9:47:32 PM): I said you might...
sn disclosed for personal reasons (9:47:59 PM): I think that for you
sn disclosed for personal reasons (9:48:07 PM): I could find a few I could live without
RawrImaKittenn (9:48:29 PM): You would really do that for me?
sn disclosed for personal reasons (9:48:47 PM): I did say you were better than the bestest guitar in the world

I wish you knew how much guitars meant to him. Then you would understand how much this conversation means to me.