August 28th, 2006

(no subject)

i feel complete. for the first time, in three years. i feel complete with out you. and it feels good. and calm and amazing. and i want to wake up tomorrow feeling complete again. ps. i hope you feel empty for treating me like shit you fucktard. because, i can say that now that i dont worry all day about whether or not your coming back and if u still love me. im sick of taking your newly found put downs. and im not taking this new you back. so i hope you feel empty and nothing satisfies your touch, because thats what you deserve for stringing me along like u did. 

fuck you
and goodnight.

(no subject)

NOTE: i, debbie, have no idea who wrote this. it was a chain e-mail some of my friends sent me. they found amusement in it. personally, it just upset me.
MORE IMPORTANT NOTE: i'm not racist. i don't want extinction of ANY race, regardless of what's been happening to my people for centuries. i promise, this isn't my point. but this one israeli wanted a letter to the world. i'm spreading it because it just made me feel like it's never gunna stop. i've had hope up until a few minutes ago that someday the fighting in israel would stop. and it's gone now.
NOTE: if you are by any chance anti-semetic, or racist, or just have problems with jews in general, DON'T READ THIS. i'm not posting this to upset anyone, or to start quarrels-- nothing like that. honest.
comment if you'd like. on anything.


An Israeli's Open Letter to the World

An Open Letter To The World

An Israeli's reply to the world (UN) can be summed up in two
words and they aren't Happy Birthday.

Dear World,

I understand that you are upset by us, here in Israel. Indeed,
it appears that you are quite upset, even angry. (Outraged?)

Indeed, every few years you seem to become upset by us. Today,
it is the "brutal repression of the Palestinians"; yesterday it was
Lebanon; before that it was the bombing of the nuclear reactor in Baghdad
and the Yom Kippur War and the Sinai campaign.

It appears that Jews who triumph and who, therefore, live, upset you
most extraordinarily. Of course, dear world, long before there was an Israel,
we - the Jewish people - upset you.

We upset a German people who elected Hitler and upset an
Austrian people who cheered his entry into Vienna and we upset a whole slew of
Slavic nations - Poles, Slovaks, Lithuanians, Ukrainians, Russians,
Hungarians and Romanians. And we go back a long, long way in the history of
world upset.

We upset the Cossacks of Chmielnicki who massacred tens of
thousands of us in 1648-49; we upset the Crusaders who, on their way to
liberate the Holy Land, were so upset at Jews that they slaughtered untold
numbers of us.

For centuries, we upset a Roman Catholic Church that did its
best to define our relationship through inquisitions, and we upset the
arch-enemy of the church, Martin Luther, who, in his call to
burn the synagogues and the Jews within them, showed an admirable
Christian ecumenical spirit.

And it is because we became so upset over upsetting you, dear
world, that we decided to leave you - in a manner of speaking - and
establish a Jewish state. The reasoning was that living in close contact
with you, as resident-strangers in the various countries that comprise
you, we upset you, irritate you and disturb you.

What better notion, then, than to leave you (and thus love you)-
and have you love us and so, we decided to come home - home
to the same land we were driven out 1,900 years earlier by a Roman
world that, apparently, we also upset.

Alas, dear world, it appears that you are hard to please.

Having left you and your pogroms and inquisitions and crusades
and holocausts, having taken our leave of the general world to live
alone in our own little state, we continue to upset you. You are upset
that we repress the poor Palestinians. You are deeply angered over the
fact that we do not give up the lands of 1967, which are clearly the
obstacle to peace in the Middle East. Moscow is upset and Washington
is upset. The "radical" Arabs are upset and the gentle Egyptian moderates
are upset.

Well, dear world, consider the reaction of a normal Jew from
Israel.

In 1920 and 1921 and 1929, there were no territories of 1967 to
impede peace between Jews and Arabs. Indeed, there was no Jewish State
to upset anybody. Nevertheless, the same oppressed and repressed
Palestinians slaughtered tens of Jews in Jerusalem, Jaffa, Safed and
Hebron. Indeed, 67 Jews were slaughtered one day in Hebron in 1929.

Dear world, why did the Arabs - the Palestinians - massacre 67
Jews in one day in 1929? Could it have been their anger over Israeli
aggression in 1967? And why were 510 Jewish men, women and children
slaughtered in Arab riots between 1936-39? Was it because Arabs were upset over
1967?

And when you, dear world, proposed a UN Partition Plan in 1947
that would have created a "Palestinian State" alongside a tiny Israel
and the Arabs cried "no" and went to war and killed 6,000 Jews - was
that "upset" caused by the aggression of 1967? And, by the way, dear
world, why did we not hear your cry of "upset" then?

The poor Palestinians who today kill Jews with explosives and
firebombs and stones are part of the same people who - when they had all
the territories they now demand be given to them for their
state -attempted to drive the Jewish state into the sea. The same twisted faces,
the same hate, the same cry of "itbach-al-yahud" (Massacre the Jew!) that
we hear and see today, were seen and heard then. The same people, the
same dream - destroy Israel. What they failed to do yesterday, they
dream of today, but we should not "repress" them.

Dear world, you stood by during the holocaust and you stood by
in 1948 as seven states launched a war that the Arab League proudly
compared to the Mongol massacres.

You stood by in 1967 as Nasser, wildly cheered by wild mobs in
every Arab capital in the world, vowed to drive the Jews into the sea.
And you would stand by tomorrow if Israel were facing extinction.

And since we know that the Arabs-Palestinians dream daily of
that extinction, we will do everything possible to remain alive in
our own land. If that bothers you, dear world, well ­think of how many
times in the past you bothered us.

In any event, dear world, if you are bothered by us, here is one
Jew in Israel who could not care less.

13/07/2006

(no subject)

dear you&you,
please don't start doing other drugs.
i love you both more than you can imagine.
you have no idea how much you're scaring me.
you're really all i have, and all i care about.
-me

(no subject)

Dear you again.

When you came out on Friday to see me at the club it gave me the hugest smile ever.
Going home with you and talking all night and day was just amazing.
But last night I made a deal with myself.
The today I wouldnt call or txt or anything.
5mins later you called me.
But I started the deal again.
I done well.

Lasted til 10pm today.

Maybe tomorrow I'll go a full day no txts, no calls no anything.

But the thought of spending all day with you on Saturday makes me so excited.

xx