I want you really bad.
And I think you want me too.
I'm sitting here writing this to you. Maybe I'll send you it maybe I wont either way I have to get this out.
I don't know whats the scariest part of this. Actually letting you go, ending whatever it is thats happening and having nothing to do with you. Or keep whatevers happening between us going.
Either way my heart is gonna break once more.
Just maybe the second option you'll realise that you want me again.
Maybe you'll just feel something like you used to.
Maybe something will click in you and you'll see that what we had was special.
Your my best friend and the only boy thats made me feel this way.
You gave me so much more than I ever thought I could find in a boyfriend.
Your the only one that after nearly a year still gives me them butterflies when I see you.
When I wake up next to you I get the biggest grin ever.
Your the boy that calls me beauitful and kisses me even when im sick and disgusting.
Your the only one that calls me at 4am to say hi because you know I don't sleep.
That special one that knows everything about me and never judge me once.
I wish I could stop loving you sometimes.
I really do because then I wouldnt be crying writing this to you.
But the thought of that good feeling being gone makes the tears worth while.
All you really need to know is that I love you.
Ever since the first time I met you I knew you would be special.
You danced like a geek and had the most amazing eyes I've ever seen.
Not to mention spilling drinks trying to impress me with your crazy moves.
You were a sure thing.
I miss you sweetheart, I really do.
Guess you never really get over the first person you truely fall head over heels for.