June 22nd, 2006

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To my last summer here in Cali...

I am going to have fun...
I am going to do whatever the hell I want.
I am going to be selfish for once in my life.
I am going to be friends with whoever I want.
If I want casual sex, then so be it.
I will choose who I want to be in bed with.
I will not let some guy bring me down.
By the way....


Yea ok going on....
I will not let my so called bestfriend bring me down.
Itz her fault shes letting herself go.

I'm good now.
I love myself.
I cannot imagine being someone else.


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"I've been thinking about it a lot and the thing is I love you" but i can't say that to your face. It'd mess up the okness we have now. You say you want to struggle with someone if you want to be in love but I say "you're scared to be in love." You frustrate me on purpose and love it. I hate that you can do that to me and I hate you're not willing to face up to anything you feel/felt for me. You said once, "if you were a boy I'd be in love with you" the only reason you wouldn't accept what you felt as love was because of my gender? That's fucking bullshit and you know it. You are scared of people knowing how you feel and you are scared of being with me. Stop playing these fucking games because I can't play games and you're winning. I want you, so quit putting it off.
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