i just wrote an entire really hateful letter to you.
it felt good to get it out, but i dont need to post it.
although you seem to find it neccesary to include me in your myspace you hate me so much.
yes I AM SO COOL.
Dear whoever can get the ball rolling on this,
long lazy weekends, all encompassing complete joy, a happy family, a full life, every day good weather, great big reassuring bear hugs, love that lasts a lifetime, everything true and real and genuine, to fall in love, to know what true love is, my heart to beat faster and slower, to just know, to have a beautiful wedding, a career and lifestyle- not just a job, to stay in the single digits, to be really kissed, to be completely swept off my feet, a husband who cooks and understands life's value, to never think that I know enoug, to always learn and be willing to learn, to travel, a honeymoon in Rome, someone who will surprise me with Swedish Fish and Reeses, to dance under the moonlight, big swishy dresses, to never lose myself, a son, flowers in my hair, to always remember, pictures, for the moment to feel real, a puppy, sunflowers and orchids, someone to cuddle with, red ballet flats, an amazing future, to be beautiful, independence, inexplicable chemistry, power and respect, a Prom date, memories, long eyelashes, a boy with green eyes, big smiles and dimples, to get accepted to UCSD (check), to be carefree, to experience every oppurtunity to its fullest, feel like I have no regrets, to be more honest, nutella, an N'sync comeback (haha), to be warm, to be satisfied, friends for always, a really good massage, to read more often, to appreciate poetry, inifnite possibilites, understanding, unlimited spending, vacation, choices, a pretty new house, success on my own terms, incredible spring days, an even better summer, graduation, to make the next few months really last, a job, summer romances, whirlwind excitement, reconciliation, the best year of my life.
Let's see what we can get done,