January 20th, 2006

it's booty plunderin' time!

I'll follow you into the dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark


In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark


You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark


Love of mine, you won't be able to see this right away, but believe me I'll be sharing it with you soon. We're so young, and the future seems so far away. I can't express how much this song is making me miss you and wish we could get married. I'd settle for a really long engagement. The next month apart is going to be tough to get through, especially since all of my courses are difficult this semester. I miss your eyes, eskimo kisses, and gentle hands (among other things, but these things are especially appealing at the moment).

Please let the next 4 weeks pass quickly.

Love,
little girl green
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    Death Cab For Cutie
wonka candy vs liquor

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Dear self,

Talk to Megan. It might be good for you.

Next semester, go to school! Don't stay home unless your like dying. yeah.

get better grades/work harder in school. Don't let senioritis get you...more.

Get more sleep.

Spend more time with Carl (if you can.)

Get along with mom? If it's possible?

Thanks. Now, go do something productive, (get off the computer!)

Me.
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    some stupid news show
firefly<3

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i have a few things to say.
if i could i would change 2 things in my life right now.
or if i could, i want my future self to come back and reassure me of something.


Dear Seth,
it's amazing how much feeling and passion and complete heart ache can go into three words.
i miss you.
i need you.
i need you to stop doing coke and acid and drinking so much.
i need you to take care of yourself.
i know you can, and i just want to know the real you for two seconds.
just so i can confirm what i think of you.

Love<3your against me girl<3


cuteboy.
ohmanohmanohman.
i was sitting at your show tonight, thinking about what i wanted to say more than anything.
the thing is, i didnt know what to say, and i still dont.
but you make me completely ache.
not my body but my head, and my soul and everything else.
i need this to stop.
i need something to happen, but i dont know what.
i dont need reassurance.
you put me through the biggest roller coaster of emotions.
i saw you look at her, and i know how you feel about her, but i cant stand it anymore.
she doesnt deserve you.
but i dont really either.
i feel like i'm in 4th grade again. i got all tingly and stuff from that hug.
and it was just weird.
i dont hate her.
i hate the idea of her.
actually no i think i hate her too.


<3<3<3<3<3<3