i'm so sorry i used to hate you. i'm so sorry that it was over a boy. my best friend, yr boyfriend. it wasnt yr fault he said the things he said to me. i judged you without knowing you. && now i know what a fucking idiot i was for that. can you imagine, had i skipped over the hating you step, what kind of heartbreak we coulda saved each other from??
we were on the phone tonight for what, three hours?? bitching, talking, whining, laughing. i just want you to know that i am sincerly sorry about everything bad that i have ever done or said about you. i fucking love you. we friends foreva now, yo! fo sho!!!
you dont fucking deserve what those boys are saying/doing to you. i mean, i thought we were all friends. apparently they arent as accepting as they think. it just makes me mad how quickly they are to judge you, how quickly they are to hate you. i hate them for that. part of me always will.
they are assholes. dont worry about them.
we still love you.
stop playing the pity game
stop acting like yr so big && bad. no one gives a fuck && i'm getting sick of yr stupid fucking attitudes && the fact that you think you can fucking patronize me. go to hell.
you deserve better.
i dont know what to do with you. you can be so two faced at times. i cant believe you would diss on jessica right infront of stephanie. && then say it was because of how she treated scott??
cuz you treated me && steph the same way.
i hope you grow up soon. for yr own good.
this is starting to be a nightly occurance. me signing onto this so i can write letters to you or letters about you, which you'll never read. but i dont mind it. it helps me sort my thoughts out && not feel so crazy for maybe five mintues of my life.
but you made me cry tonight. because of yr reply to what i wrote in my profile. i had written
please repeat after me
i am an insensitve prat who doesnt deserve half the things she gets.
&& then i stuck my away message up to go talk to stephy on the phone. when i raced back up here at two thirty, you had already gotten off, but left me a message anyways. all it said was
I refuse to repeat.
after ten mintues of figuring out what you ment, i cried a little. because i've been so sad today, so overwhelmed, so hopeless today that the fact that you would take five seconds out of yr day to leave me that message. it made me happy.
yr fucking amazing