I want things to go back to normal with you. Back wyhen we could spejnd hours on the phone with each other and laugh about nothing and conversation would flow so easily and things weren't so "awkward". I know things changed between us, but it doesn't mean our friendship (yes, there was a friendship there) has to change too. Now it seems like we barely know each other. Monosyllabic responces to each other's questions....we haven't talked for a good 5 minutes at a time since things went awkward and that was...a few weeks ago, I believe? Why is it like this? Do you secretly just hate me and never want to talk to me again? I know if I were to ask you you would say no and say that it was just you, that you've been in a bad mood, or thinking a lot, or something like that, but firstly, I don't think you would have the guts to say yes even if it was/is true, and secondly, I'm paranoid, these thoughts constantly run through my head, especially when people give them reason to. And I hate how I can't bring this up with you. I hate how I know i'll never give you this letter, and wouldl hate someone if they did. I just...I don't know. Most of all, I hate that I'm writing this to a community instead of telling you this to your face. I hate my cowardice for not telling you and taking the easy way to let my emotions out.And I hate that I'm going to end my letter so uneloquently and quickly right here..
Stop sucking so much. Get something to do besides the plaza. It became boring after the first 3 times of hanging there. It's not cool unless you go with your friends, and even then, it gets boring going anfd looking through the same stores that never seem to get anything different. At least the old town had a movie theater (not like I ever went to it, but if I wanted to, I could have...I was too young to go on my own, damnit...) and people who would actually invite me to do stuff with them occasionally, and friends within walking distance who wouldn't mind me walking up to their doors and ringing their doorbells. You have a plaza and one or two disinterested friends within walking distance with the rest of them rarely remembering you exist outside of school and when they do recognize it it's at the worst possible time. Meh...
Why are you like this? Why are you all whiney and mopey. Your friend and you have become awkward. It's okay, you'll both get through it, and if not, there are other friends to be had. You and your boyfriend broke up last week, but it's not a big deal, you saw that it was coming and why it was going to happen and were gonna do it anyways but he beat you to the punch.Why are you spazzing so much? Why are you in such a bad mood? Is this a random bout of teenage angst? Why are you all mopey and angsty for no reason. Seriously, if it's for no reason, you should stop because...well, there's no reason for it. That's it. I'm sorry self, but...you really need to lighten up. seriously. Life goes on, and you've gotten through worse without a problem. Stop being a spoot
Get a bigger battery. You go dead at the most inopportune moments. I know it's my fault for not charging you, but you'd think the battery would last for longer than a day... >_<...Also, stopbeing posssed. Yo uknow what I mean..randomly turning yourself all the way off as if you had a battery failure, then turn it back on to find a 3/4 filled battery like you did yesterday. Whatever demon you have living in you...kick it out. I know i didn't push any buttons, so therefore, it must be some annoying spirit thingie, which means that you must expell it, because I spent too many paychecks that I could have been putting towards other stuff on you for you to be demons inside of you. Bad iPod, bad. Stop it...
Why have you been crappy so far? I mean, I understand, every life has it's trials, But it seems like you;ve been throwing them at me with disturbing regularity since I was 5 or 6, when you through that "doozy" of a one at me. Dude, you suck, start being nice to me, and I'll start being nice to you
Dear people on my buddy list,
Stop being spoots and talk to me so that I actually have something to do instead of coming across as a whiney angsty teenager ith no regard for anything for herself. 'Cause that really annoys people. I don't like to annoy people. And 'm usually not whiney or angsty. So c'mon, help a good friend out...
Stop writing cryptic, meaningless letters to the community and annoying the nice peoples. Also, stop trying to throw random humor into said letters. It doesn't work well. I'm sorry, it doesn't.