I'm living in your letters.. Breathe deeply from this envelope

Dear entire boy population,

I want a boy.
I want a boy who will play me my favorite song on acoustic guitar.
I want a boy who will do things just to make me happy.
I want a boy who will blast Peter Gabriel's "In Your Eyes" from a boom box, John Cusak in Say Anything-style.
I want a boy who will know that it's the little things that are the most endearing.
I want a boy who will make an effort.
I want a boy who will leave me messages on my voicemail, telling me how much it all means.
I want a boy who will be my everything.
I want a boy who will call me his. And only his.
I want a boy who will not disappoint me in the way that only boys can.
I want a boy who will brush the hair out of my face and look deep into my eyes.
I want a boy who will sing softly into my ear when I'm pretending to be asleep, even though he's not the greatest singer.
I want a boy who will hold my hand.
I want a boy who will understand that that's all I can give.
I want a boy who will put up with my sarcasm.
I want a boy who will be my shoulder to cry on, even though I've sworn a million times I would never call him up in tears.
I want a boy who will call me just to say, "Listen. It's our song."
I want a boy who will be honest with me.
I want a boy who will know that flattery is not the way into my heart.
I want a boy who will suprise me.
I want a boy who will know all my quirks, and not hate me for them.
I want a boy who will have a life other than me, and understand that I do, too.
I want a boy who will kiss me on the forehead.
I want a boy who will not pick fights or blame everything on moods.
I want a boy who will wear that shirt until it's practically dead because I said I liked it.
I want a boy who will make me feel small in his arms.
I want a boy who will stick up for me.
I want a boy who will slow dance with me. In the rain.
I want a boy who will be genuine.
I want a boy who will make me feel wanted, not smothered.
I want a boy who will always know exactly what to say to make me laugh.
I want a boy who will complement AND compliment me.
I want a boy who will not stop working as hard just because he "already has" me.
I want a boy who will walk with me on the pier, even though he thinks it's lame.
I want a boy who will understand.
I want a boy who will want me too.

Waiting For You,
Jas <3

dear someone,
im not shur who im writing to
or why
i just have an urge to write something
im not shur what yet
i assume ill work that out later
ill prolly end up talking bout toffee
i always do
like hes constantly on my mind
but he isnt
am i confusing u?
thats ok im confusing me 2
when ur hungry
you eat
when your tired
you sleep
when you love some1
shouldnt u ask them out or tell them?
but id much rather be hungry or tired
much simpler problems to solve
want and need are to different things
or are they?
do i want you?
or do i need you?
or could it b both?
im not shur
i need sleep, im shur of that
bi bi
love alwayz
lolly

dear michael,

please keep this in mind everytime you hang out with them
everytime you light your cigarette.
everytime you take a hit.
everytime you sit in class on friday, with nothing to look foward to except drugs.
that i loved you for you.
and they love you for something you're not.
i loved you before everything.
you changed so much for everyone but yourself.
i was the only one who saw how perfect you already were.
now you're a complete stranger to me.
i dont even know what to say to you anymore.
talking to you, is like talking to a stranger.
but on that night, you were perfect again.
you were you.
and i was me.
and we talked like we used to.
we laughed and joked.
and life was perfect for that one hour.
one hour was all it took to bring back everything.
everything that i thought i had gotten rid of.
you're ruining me.
and i dont know how to stop it.
just please,
keep my heart somewhere drugs wont go.
xoxo