I can't believe what you did tonight. That hurt me so much. You don't even know. You know how much I have stuck up for you through everything. I have always believed in you and never lost faith. Now you tell everyone what you did. It doesn't even matter that it was a lie, just how could you even say something like that. You don't even know me. God you have no clue. The persona I have when I am with you is totally different then when I'm with everyone else. You think I'm a perfect angel who never does anything wrong and that bugs the shit out of me. I am not. and you need to know that. I hate how you always make me feel like a loser, but then if you find out something bad I've done you get mad and tell on me. That is not being a brother...fucking nark. You know...I love you so much and I worry about you all the time. Why can't you just ever make me feel good about myself. You always put me down. And when you do it's not intentionally usually, but you have no idea that what your saying hurts. I have nothing else to say to you as of now..because you just made me cry to much.
God you have been my bestfriend since I was born..I know you better then probably anyone. But now I can't even hang out with you anymore because all you want to do is drugs..and fine I'm okay if you do them. Got nothing against it...but honestly can't you just have fun without them for a day or two. I can't stand how you always say you're bored when you're with me. And you know the only reason i haven't just given up on you is because you are my connection to danny. It's like I'm sick and I can't just let go of this kid for good. Because as long as I have you, I have some connection to him. I hate how you try to put on this huge act when you hang out wiht my brother. And how now you only wanna go get drunk with my brother. Whatever god I can't even talk about you anymore.
this is all such bullshit.