November 27th, 2004


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All of them,

Oh my fucking god, stop pretending you care. I know you don't. And I'm okay with that. I don't want to be part of your little 'In-Circle' anymore! I used to be in it before it expanded and things went weird. I prefer being on my own. I want it this way.

I feel so bitter these days.. I just want to be left alone by you guys. You all love each other, so stop doing it in my face.

I <3 NY!

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I don't know what you want. You confuse me like every other man on this earth! You say you don't want to get too attached since I'm younger than you. But if we keep continuing to hang out and you wanting to have sex with me, I'm going to feel attached to you... because I'm getting attached already. I like you. I wouldn't be wasting my time seeing you if I didn't. Do you want us to be a couple or not? Because at times you seem like you're fine with everything, and then at random moments you worry about stuff. I just don't want to get hurt. Since I've been hurt plenty of times in the past, and I don't know what I will do if I got hurt again. If this keeps happening I don't know if I can keep hanging out with you and stuff because it's just going to get harder for me.

<3 Meagan
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a poem by me: "Greatest Regret"
By Shayna- Martini_kiss187, add me

"Don't regret this" she's thinking in her head and under her breath
As he leans in closer for another kiss, that always takes her breath away
"I'll never regret this, I'll never regret you" He smiles
and like shoelaces they twisted into a knot so unperfect
She knew this wasn't right, and for eveything it was wrong.
She couldn't stop herself, she says "anything"
and anything repeats in her head

She never wanted to be the girl,
who let down her gaurd to get what she needed
She couldn't help it anymore.
It all started with one kiss,
The feeling of fake love,
That came from his lips,
Te warmth of his breath along her neck
This is all she ever wanted,
all she ever wanted from him

It felt so wrong,
Tis wasn't how the fairy tales said it would be.
This isnt right,
it feels oh so wrong,
but she looks into his eyes.
Such a beautiful color,
reminds me of the day we shared,
just the two of us
we were happy with who we were
and who we were with, eachother

Look at us now....
What have we done?
Who have we turned into, what are we doing?
What are we doing, to eachother?
I want to do this more then anything
(anything repeats in her head)...
"Don't Regret this" She says in a whisper
"Tomarrow will come and i want your love, don't regret this"
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