i don't know how to say this, proving that you aren't the only one who's bad with words. i'll start by saying that last night was beautiful. that i think you're a great guy, very sweet, and thanks for being cold out in the rain talking to me. you're not an asshole for liking alison. i know that you feel like crap for some reason, but you shouldn't. these things happen all the time.
thanks for giving me your coat, it was freezing outside.
i guess what i want to say is that i don't want to be your fallback, like i am right now, but i would rather be that than nothing. i wish you didn't like alison, and i don't mean to wish things against you, but i wish that you fall apart instantly, because i like you.
you know me so well and you don't at the same time. like when you caught me crying, i thought you wouldn't be able to tell because it was raining.
i wish that i was standing out in the rain in your coat in your arms again. there is something there. i like you and you like me, and i hate that there is a roadblock, and i hate that there's another girl, and i wish that this would just work out, because it could. i want to just scream at you, "don't date alison, date me!" but i can't. she likes you.
maybe as much as i like you.
please come back to me.