October 18th, 2004

Another day of talking.. and im in two minds.. i think i have to tell you.. i finally realised...

Dear Lee,
Im suprised you care.
I mean afterall, with all the amazingly beautiful and talented (not to mean dirt cheap and easy) girlfriends you've had, and or can get, im suprised you havent dumped me and decided to go get someone else.
Take this as a lesson, if you do really care, do not play on my greatest insecurities.
Do not boast about how you can get 'most' girls to do anything.
I am NOT most girls.
I will NOT be another one of a great queue of girlfriends you seem to have.
And if it means being the first one to dump you, then fine.
You need to be taught on how to care about someone and not only for what they look like or their tit size, and if i have to teach it to you, i will take great pleasure in doing so =)
Apparently im meant to love you by now, or something equally as stupid, but i dont.
For this i am genuinely sorry, but i dont think i will ever feel more then a passing crush for you.
You will be a lesson to me and to youreself.
You will learn the lessons and take heed of them.
I promise you that my dear

Dear self,
I like who you are becoming.
You are losing fear, and saying what you really think.
I think Lee could be a valuable lesson for you, if you are taught correctly.
If you put trust in that on quote from her, you and Lee will never mean much.. but you can hurt him and have fun like that
Y'know what? dedicate this song to Lee
Whatever you decide, Have fun doing it, and write another letter soon
From Youreself

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    Riverside - In Two Minds

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Then as it was, then again it will be
An' though the course may change sometimes
Rivers always reach the sea
Blind stars of fortune, each have several rays
On the wings of maybe, down in birds of prey
Kind of makes me feel sometimes, didn't have to grow
But as the eagle leaves the nest, it's got so far to go

Changes fill my time, baby, that's alright with me
In the midst I think of you, and how it used to be

Did you ever really need somebody, And really need 'em bad
Did you ever really want somebody, The best love you ever had
Do you ever remember me, baby, did it feel so good
'Cause it was just the first time, And you knew you would

Through the eyes an' I sparkle, Senses growing keen
Taste your love along the way, See your feathers preen
Kind of makes makes me feel sometimes, Didn't have to grow
We are eagles of one nest, The nest is in our soul

Vixen in my dreams, with great surprise to me
Never thought I'd see your face the way it used to be
Oh darlin', oh darlin'

I'm never gonna leave you. I never gonna leave
Holdin' on, ten years gone
Ten years gone, holdin' on, ten years gone
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    Ten Years Gone