September 20th, 2004

letter to my lover

APK,

Words cannot express how much you mean to me. Everyday I spend with you makes my heart break. I love you so damn much and yet I cannot have you as my own. You say you love me, and yet you are giving your heart to someone else? I know you met her before me, but it hurts so bad that I can't give you my love. Someday, you'll wake up and we will share our feelings for eachother, I'm sure of it. Until that day comes, let's just be there for one another and get closer. I'll never leave your side.

I love you.


-Mishi
bohemian

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dear you,
i am so sorry. what a screw up i am. what a piece of work, let me tell you. 'well, you know what, fuck you!' the phone goes dead for half a second. i could have killed myself last night without any regrets if you would've let me, but you didn't. you're angry, and you have every single reason to be. but you still love me, and we still nuzzle, and you still hold my hand.
i hope that someday you will find it in your heart to forgive me. i don't deserve it. i don't deserve you.
i love you.
thank you for loving me.
love,
me

I left my heart openBut you didnt understand

I DONT WANT YOU
I DONT LOVE YOU
And you know.. it didnt rip me apart when you told me i scared you
I didnt like it it.. and this me that youve been speaking to for the last few weeks.. hasnt been me
I Love You
I need you and i fucking hate it that you dont even like me
Do you remember when we used to be the closest friends ever?
i miss that i miss you and i miss me
I love you
I Love you
I LOVE YOU
X~x~x
No i dont.. no i dont i dont no i dont
i dont need you
i dont want you and i can pass the day without missing you
When did you deicde i had changed
Please all i asked for is hello
Or something
X~x~X
Im so sorry that i love you
Im so sorry that i hurt because you dont
But all that blood ive spilt for you, You will never know.. and i will never tell you
I cant
You are perfect
And You deserve more then me
Im sorry

All of my heart my sould and my head
Beth XxX

THERE ARE NO FUCKING WORDS TO DESCRIBE THIS IT ONLY GOES DOWN TO EMOTION AND I WOULD CUT AGAIN SO READILY FOR JUST ONE KISS IM SO SORRY
I will never stop loving you
This emotion will never stop wanting you
And i will never stop needing you

I just wanted you to know
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