if only i had said before i lost the chance
theres apart of me that gets lost every time i think of you.
i get caught up in the memories that once would have
haunted me, but now they give me an odd comfort of sorts.
i miss you, i hope you know that.
i wish i could say those things i never dared to before.
so much of me wishes you were here physically but no matter how much i dont see you i feel you everywhere.
is it weird that i feel your presence surrounding me?
that i find comfort in that, and i know you will keep me safe.
i wonder what would have happened to us both if we had never met.
because surely if you hadnt got a job at the same work place, we would never have been friends and i never would have had your help and i would be the one dead not you.
i know i never said this to you when you were alive but i guess i can tell you anytime and know that in some way you'll hear it.
thank you sophie.
you gave me strength and courage and wisdom
i regret not being able to impart my own.
but i know i will meet you again.
i can feel your reasurance.
thankyou for being my friend, my therapist, my angel.
miss ya chookie.
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