Times are tough when you can't see the one you love because distance is a factor to the two of us. You live South...and I live here, suburbia. Every house looks exactly the same, every mowed lawn average like the rest. And after meeting you, I thought I'd never feel the same...and I haven't. I truly feel like you're the only one who knows me, but we'll never see each other face to face; only pics of us can meet each other as they stumble across the same path on the web. And so you know soon I won't be able to talk to you online antmore because of the comprehensions of a mother in dire need of attention to pull me away from you. And so I sit on this shattered folding chair that sits through all the conversations we had, and this heart you seem to touch a lot is one that felt every word that affected me strongly.
All I wanted was to be held in your arms, just once...and my first kiss. I always wanted my first kiss to be special, and well.. *pulling her knees close to her chest* I wanted my first kiss to be with you. You're the only one who truly cared for me, never looking at how intelligent I am or how pretty I compare to with other girls. Because of you, I think there is hope for me again...and so, I'm leaving soon. And now I feel you don't care that I'll be gone. I would've suspected you'd be here for my last few days, but everytime I try talking to you, you push me away... All I seem to wonder is if you really do care for me. Am I too much of an interference in your life; please tell me, tell me before I leave. I just want to know that you're here for me...you said you would.
I remember the words that really told me that you wouldn't let go of me Sion:"You be careful too; I dont want anything bad to happen to you...I will always be here for you if you need someone to listen or talk to..."
So where are you right now, now that I'm intoxicated with painful tears? Crying my heart out hoping someone would hear my screams? I'm staring out at the stars wondering if you see the same stars as I, but then I think...I'm not good enough for you... So for this time being, I lay hear crying with emotionless eyes looking out the window, hoping you'd come back...but hope is something that seems more of a wish.
I just...I ju-ju-st wanted to te-te-tell you that I-I-I-I love you...
"Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay awhile."-Maroon 5