Am I toy?
Dear world hat's around me!
Am I having fun with the looks i got? No, I am trying to get rid of them, if they dont go away, what the fuk am I supposed to do? It's so frakin easy to say and advise, only the person who goes through understands. Nobody understands my pain and nobody can or nobody will. Deep inside I am happy with the way I am...If I got no problems with the way I am why do u guys hav? To make them I am doing what they are teling me to do? Is it my fault?
Every single fukin damn day, Every single fukin damn day, I wish, I wish, I soo wish that I were like the way my parents wanted me. I am just tired of everything....am soo tired....I can't, I just can't hold on anymore.
Mom and Dad say all those things that they want to, I understand their pain, I swear by god I do...But
Who am I gonna talk to about this? That "Hey anu, look my parents don't like. what am i supposed to do?" I don't want to look like an idiot cryig in front my friends who can't even understand my pain...I have no objection in sharing my happiness, but sharing my sorrow? I just can't do that.
Am I toy who got no feeligs? Just everyone will say whatever they feel like? I am sick, am soo sick of hearing the same shit over and over again and again...And who am I talking to now?
Eveytime I look at myself in the mirror the only thing I see is some girl who is some piece of shit, and worth of nothing. And yes I know what to do and I have been doing since years and I hav been getting the same shit from others for years. Current Mood: depressed