I dont come on here intentionally to write a post cuz i feel i need to, its jst once i start typing everything i wanna think and say comes out. So its kinda cool to get what im bottling up off my chest.
You have so many new rad friends that you should go and hang out with. Once your best friend leaves i think you'll miss her yet you'll be oblidged to go and hang with these people and these people are good people who dont take drugs and you should be really excited to get off them. Hanging around these people will make your life 1 million times better. Look foward to it.
You said to me today im a different person after the weekend. I will be back...my new life will start soon and ive promised myself that. I'll see you then hey.
I say my new life starts soon but i will still think of you everyday after then because i know thats something that i cannot help. Im so in love with every inch of your body and soul and words can never express what i feel for you. I love you so fucking much it fucking hurts. You turn 19 on Thursday and i plan to become friends with you this day, i dont know if being friends with you will make things harder or make things better. Theres the fact i know if i become friends with you i'll know what im missing out on, but i know that already..so who cares. Or theres the fact that im not fighting with the only person ive truly ever loved, that might make things better.
I want to hear your voice, i want to know what you've been up to and i want you to realise you have chosen the wrong girl. I'm gunna be a drunken mess but fuck i dont care im going to tell you your the most amazing person ive ever met in my whole entire life and all i want for you is to be my friend.
I'll be lying because that isn't all i want but i know thats all i'll ever get so i might aswell get what im given.
Gregory Eric Smith i love you always and forever with all my heart and soul dont ever change.