I know I've told you a million times, but I often wonder if it ever really sank in. Do you even know how much knowing you has impacted my life? I can't even begin to describe the feelings that overcome me just thinking about. I often wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't met you and hadn't found Jesus. You are one of the only people in my life that has completely changed me. I mean, everyone makes an impact at some point for some reason.. but you helped shape me into the person I am today and I think that's so amazing. I am so grateful that God brought you to me. I always think back to the first year I went to Inside Out with you and how it completely changed my life. I feel like crying right now because I'm so overwhelmed. Gosh, I owe it all to you. I know- I owe it all to God really.. but you listened to Him, and answered the call, and put your faith in Him-- and in me. This shy little sophomore who was like clay in your hands. And you had enough strength and courage to mold me into the amazing person I have become. Words can't even begin to describe the gratitude I have.
I have to be honest- it pains me to see that life has caused you to question your faith and how you live your life. I often think about you and wonder how you are doing. Tonight I was looking at your myspace profile and I thought.. gosh... I don't even know you anymore. I don't. We've both changed.. we've grown apart. It's inevitable, it happens. I was really excited to have you move back to NH, but the more I thought about it the harder it was. Because, it's hard for me not being best friends with you anymore.. not seeing you all the time, and not going to Moongroov shows. Not being who we used to be. I mean- that's kinda dumb on my part.. we haven't been that way in almost 5 years.. but I am that silly girl who clings to the past. My point is-- I was kind of grasping the idea that if you were in FL there was a reason we never hung out--- because you were 1200 miles away. But when you moved to NH, I knew I'd never see you anyway. And it was hard because this time there was no excuse. I lived in the same town but we still didn't have time for eachother and I think that was hardest for me. There was no more excuses.. I just had to deal with the fact that we'd both moved on and away from eachother. But I want you to know that no matter what I am so thankful for you and will always love you and be there for you. I am so proud of all you have accomplished and the life you have lived. I only hope for the best for you, and it makes me smile to see that you are still holding onto God. Don't ever lose the gifts you have been given Tammy. Don't even lose your relationship with God. Because in the end that's all that matters. And know that no matter what happens, I will always be here for you.