I the coy mistress
There were times when we wern't talking that i sat and thought of you, perhaps what it would be like if i called and we got back together. I was still a baby then and you offered me not just yourself but your two girls aswell. Unfortunatly you didn't offer me love, so i left.
Now a full year later we begin to talk again. You have someone in your life who i have come to adore. I dont want you anymore i dont need your love. So why burn me with remarks of it? You told me you love me now and its too late for us. I confronted you and you explained how she is your soul mate but you still adore me. I cant beleve you got jelous when i kissed another man or even tried to make me feel guilty for it.
I dont want to be the other woman either, but sometimes when your lips touch mine fire trails in my soul. Im sick of your hands on my body and i'm sick of feeling like i'm lieing to your girlfriend. Your like an addiction and i find it harder and harder to deny your advances. You've awoken my longing from a year gone and to what end? to always be that consolation prize in the shadow, for whenever she wont satisfy your needs. I feel like i deserve more than that, more than your taunts and teasings. i certainly deserve more than to be a toy on the side. I dont want you anymore,
Maybe thats just a little lie to you, but a big one to myself. I wish i had the courage to walk away from you again.
Me Current Mood: guilty