I wish everything could be like it was when we were best friends and when we loved eachother. That kind of love is hard to come by. I'm sorry for not talking to you much after everything that happened between us. That night I was so confused and lost. I had wished for that to happen for almost two years, and by the time it did I had gotten it in my head that it never would. Everything was moving so fast and I just had to get away. I was confronted with everything I ever wanted in a relationship and I couldn't handle the fact that it was actually happening. You asked me to sleep with you before that night. How could I say yes to that? I wanted so much more, but you started having sex with Kara. What was I supposed to think? I had no idea what was going on. Then we tried again, tried our friendship. Needless to say things have changed. That night I actually cried. It was the first time in a long time but I couldn't stand seeing us like that. I hated us being so distant. I hated that you asked Kara to come with us. Nothing is like it used to be and I can't help but think that it's my fault.
Now you're moving away... with Kara... the girl that still has feelings for her ex, and always will. You're going across the country to California. That's where I want to go, to get away from here. I guess I just want to tell you that I'm going to miss you and I love you.
I'll never forget you, and I'll always wonder "what if?"