I DONT WANT TO CARE ANYMORE.
I want to stop thinking about you. Really, I do. I hate how you don`t even care about me. I hate how you can make me laugh even when all I want is to hate you. I hate how you can just walk into the room & make me happy again. I hate how every song I hear I think of you, how everytime I watch FNSU I think of you. I always wonder what it would be like if I was what you needed.
I hate how within five minutes of telling me you liked me you asked her out. I hate how at the same exact time you were asking me to the movies you were asking her to be your girlfriend. I`m glad she said no. I really think you deserved it. I hope she took your heart and fucking snapped it in two, because that is exactly what you deserve.
I hate you for being so shallow, and going for whoever is hott. I hate how you talk about other girls and ask me for tips about them. I dont want to tell you how to get them to make out with you! I want you to be asking them about me. But no. I am the friend, I am the invisible one. I`m not as pretty as them, well I`m sorry. I`ll never be like them so why do I still insist on liking you? I should just give up, but I can`t. I just can`t do it.
And I`m sorry I`m not what you need, I try as hard as I can, but I will never be good enough.
- I wish I had the courage to send that letter. But I never will. But it feels good just to get it out.