June 20th, 2004

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i dont know if any of you have read the book the perks of being a wallflower but its my favorite book... ive read it like three times... anyways its a series of letters that this boy writes to an annonymous person. i just wanted to write a bit of one of his letters in here, bcuz its kind of how i feel lately.

Dear Friend,

I guess what I'm saying is that this all feels very familiar. but its not mine to be familiar about. I just know that another kid has felt this. this one time when its peaceful outside, and youre seeing things move, and you dont want to, and everyone is asleep. and all the books youve read have been read by other people. and all the songs youve loved have been heard by other people. and you know that if you looked at these facts when you were happy, you would feel great because you are describing 'unity.' its like when you are excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. and other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. and all you want is to feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you're happy, too.

Love always,

i HIGHLY reccomend this book... its amazing.<3
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Dear you;

I wish you could see me. I mean actually see me. See the real me, and know that I love you. I do love you, even though I scream I hate you everyday. I don't know how to love people. I'm sorry.

Dear him;

I hate you, I really do. You ruined me. I hate myself because of you.
I hate you.


Dear me;

You are not a liar.