Damn you to the 9th circle of hell. Damn you for putting me last when i put you first. Damn you for lying. Damn you for making me care. I think you get some kind of twised fked up enjoyment out of the control you have over me- Yes an email from you can send me crashing, even after a great day. Is that what you want to hear? Well there you GO. Are you happy now?!?!?!?!?!? And the really fing hilarious part about this is, you didnt even say anything hurtfull. And i think i almost would have preffered that. At least that would have shown some emotion, rather then the constant apathy you seem to display at your convieninece. If this is love then what the hell does pain feel like? And you know what else, you dont love me. If you did you wouldnt do this.. And don't feed me the bullshit about obligations, you have a fking obligation to me, to follow through, to not lie, to at least act like you care. God you dont seem to get this, and the thing is your not dumb- but i'm no longer open to accepting apolgies. I am done. %110 done- you can fk over somone else for a change. Or with any luck someone will do it to you. And when you hurt so bad you can barely breath, and you want to call me and come over and cry to me and kiss me- GUESS what. I will not be here. I will not be cried on or kissed- Not by you anyway. Stop by, i want to say goodbye to you properly, i want everything you gave me back in your face. I want to see the pain in your eyes when i tell you i know longer care. I want to hear you say, i love you, and i want to hear your voice crack when you say it. And i want to smile and tell you that honestly i couldnt give a fucking damn. That is what i want to do. And you know what, for once i'm going to do it.. I won't back down this time. Go ahead see if your beautifull eyes can betray me again. I hope you miss me. I hope you realize just how much you cared once i dont anymore. Yes of coarse i still do, but you don't need to know that. I am going to see you in pain this time. For once it will not be me that has been stabbed through the heart, it will be you- and after we'll see how strong you really are... Because with anyluck i am going to break you.
"Your calling 2 late. 2 late to be gracious you do not warrant long goodbye's"
"You know that you are worthless and i am better then the games that you play"