my heart is empty yet you fill my soul
just to see you. and to think about how you don't love me anymore, i dedicated so many songs to you
i see your face inside if every pair of hazel eyes.
that was what i fell in love with.
your hazel eyes.
i only said that i hate myself sometimes so that i would hear you say that i was beautiful and look at me like you felt something for ME!
of all people
in my sad and bitter heart you saw beauty, you saw something more than a depressed attention seeking girl.
or another friend to all the boys.
you spoke to me, and every word...
every syllable that escaped your mouth was what kept me from crying because of all the hurt that he put me through.
for once i had worth
i was something that someone saw value in.
but now all those sorry girly emotional feelings pour out of me in a whirlwind of tears.
and then my head pounds...
i see images, feel you kiss every part of my face with the passion of a heated moment...
then it all blurrs
and i come back to reality, where i am worthless yet again
where my heart explodes with pain because you are with someone else...
someone that doesnt realise how wondrefull you are and she doesnt see that you feel for her
just as you no longer see my emotion.
i know when i make a mistake.
and i know when i am in love.
and its funny, i have only fallen in love once before this, and he said i "wasn't worth his time"
i guess im not worth your time either...
with every piece of my heart i love you
every entity of my being
everything i posess
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