I'm living in your letters.. Breathe deeply from this envelope

Just another sad emo girl
Accidentally brought into this world.
Angry, lost, and confused,
While you stand there, amused.
I'm left lying on the floor
While you walk out the door.
Leave me alone again
I'll never be whole again.

I remember how I felt
When I looked into your eyes
I stared in awe and wonder,
Completely mesmerized.
But then your lips opened
Speaking those beautiful lies.
You turned away and left me
As I lay and cry.

Your eyes, they stared and raped
While your hands reached out to take
My sobbing body in your arms
But I won't fall for your charms.
I'm sick of hearing lies,
Of all my ignored cries!
You left me alone again,
I'll never be whole again.

I remember how I felt
When I looked into your eyes.
I stared in awe and wonder,
Completely mesmerized.
But then your lips opened
Speaking those beautiful lies.
You turned away and left me
As I lay and cry.

What do I do when I'm all alone?
You were my refuge, you were my home.
You looked at me and understood
When others tried, but no one could.
You were the one who cared
But you'll never again be here.
Why do I still miss you so much,
Continue to sob, or yearn for your touch?

I remember how I felt
When I looked into your eyes.
I stared in awe and wonder,
Completely mesmerized.
But then your lips opened
Speaking those beautiful lies.
You turned around and left me,
Leaving me to cry.
Always cry.

Only you would understand, but you'll never see, and you'll never care.

So why did I?

To whomever is really out there for me to believe in:

How come no one gets the way I look at things? It seems no matter what I do there is someone saying thats wrong. I'm sorry, but my beliefs are different. Just because I take the world on one way and you do another doesn't give them the right to disrespect me. I try so hard to make things easy. I don't try and make my religion or my beliefs all that I am but really, they are what make up me. And when I sit down to read people's lj's or when I talk to them on aim I don't need to hear about Jesus this Jesus that. When will they realize no matter how much they talk about Jesus I'll never believe in him? Someone needs to accept me as I am. I'm tired of trying to change for people. If I didn't feel the need to please people I'd be damn happy with things, with myself, with life in general. But everyone expects something.

When I was little and knew lots (well it was a lot to me as a little kid) no one expected anything from me except for me to be a kid.
And now that I'm older and know nothing, everyone expects me to be whatever would be convenient to them at the moment.

I give up on trying to change for people. I don't want to change. I want to be how I am and I want to be happy with that. So quit trying to pull me into your beliefs, for real guys, I DON'T GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT JESUS!

That's all.