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Thursday, January 1st, 2004

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12:46a
Some people think when there lover gets jealous its bad, but i think it shows you that they care.
what do YOU think?
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1:58a
Dear You,

Stop dragging him along until you find someone better. Stop promising your love to him, and making him think everything is okay. Stop being selfish. Stop talking about how "hott" every other guy is, when you want him to have more confidence. Fucking cunt.
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4:46a
I'm new here...so here is my first post.

I've been talking to this guy online for a while now and since tonight is new years, he went out and got drunk and did drugs...so i yelled at him because 1) I just don't like drugs, and 2) he is supposed to be quiting. This is just part of our convo that I liked. (I'm xsolastsummerxhc)

nuthin (3:58:05 AM): i'm sorry i messed up today
xsolastsummerxhc (3:58:24 AM): with the drugs?
nuthin (3:59:18 AM): yeah
xsolastsummerxhc (3:59:25 AM): that's ok
xsolastsummerxhc (3:59:34 AM): just as long as your trying to quit
xsolastsummerxhc (3:59:41 AM): just no more tonight
nuthin 3:59:41 AM): i am
xsolastsummerxhc (3:59:44 AM): ok?
nuthin (3:59:45 AM): okk

nuthin (4:12:06 AM): i luv youuuu

nuthin (4:43:10 AM): you can do it!
nuthin (4:43:22 AM): i believe in you :-P
xsolastsummerxhc (4:43:32 AM): haha ok
xsolastsummerxhc (4:43:37 AM): we believe in each other
xsolastsummerxhc (4:43:46 AM): we have a lot of promises to keep
xsolastsummerxhc (4:43:48 AM): lol
nuthin (4:43:59 AM): lol
nuthin (4:44:06 AM): i think we can do it
xsolastsummerxhc (4:44:22 AM): me too

^^When he said he believed in me...I was like awww. We made promises like...to talk to each other forever and never stop, he has to quit doing drugs, i have to talk to my friend...and more that i can't think of at the moment...well thanks for allowing me to take up your time.
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4:55p
where are you and i'm so sorry
as much as you deny yourself
i know who you really are
and i know how you really feel;
i know you better than you want me to
and now i went and did this
i've broken you.
don't deny it.
as much as you hate it
and hate me for saying it
you can't deny it.
priding yourself on your unbreakable heart
looks like i went and broke it
and a million tears from my jaded eyes
can't make up for your anguish.
you taught me so much;
how to live
how to laugh
how to love
and this is how i repay you.
your promise to never yell
so as to never make me cry
it fell through.
the cracking of your voice
and the betrayed, helpless look in your eye shook me.
it shook me to the core
and i sit here broken.

what the fuck am i thinking. i cant show you this. i've got to be nuts to even think youd read it. goddamn. shoot me.

Jon :: I love you more than you will understand. And I don't know why I did it, or maybe I do. I can only hope one day you will forgive me for what I've done, forgive me for killing your spirit. I know what I said to you didn't come out right, and all I ask is the chance to explain, and to tell you I love you.

I need a fucking gun. </b>Somebody give me a fucking gun.
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7:54p
To many people...
To you.Collapse )

And that is all.

Current Mood: amused
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11:55p
ramblingsCollapse )

Current Mood: tired, sad
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