November 1st, 2003

(no subject)

Kevin.
ever since i broke up with you last monday everything has been weird. yeah i broke up with you and i made you cry. but still to me it doesnt even seem like you care that i care about you.
yeah on friday you still left lunch to get fucking high. If you forgot THATS THE FUCKIN REASON WHY I BROKE UP WITH YOU. you are such a dumbass kevin i fuckin love you so much and you dont even fucking care.
yeah on tuesday when you came over and we got everything straightened out we said we would go back out once we got everything worked out. im pretty fucking sure you blew your chance at that one.
i hate it so much. when im not with you i always think about the good times we had together, like south haven fireworks, latenight phone calls, that one night till you stayed till 3 in the morning and all the times you came over just to hang out and not do anything in particular. but when im with you, you smell like smoke and dont even fucking look at me now. i hate it. i wish you showed that you cared about me.
its so crazy, i never thought i was going to break up with you but i did. the funny thing is that i told you if i ever broke up with you it would be because you smoke weed. and thats exactly why i broke up with you.
i want to hate you so bad right now but i cant.


<3

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Tell me what else can I do, tell me what else can I say,
The closer that I get to you, the further you push me away,
Till I don't know where, to go, and I don't know why I stay,
Do you even care, or am I, some little game you play


Are you ever gonna need me baby, like I need you,
Are you ever gonna want me baby, the way I want you to,
I know that you love me,
And oh I know down deep you do,
But are you ever gonna love me,
The way I love you


I never know how you feel,
I can't read your mind,
I just keep waitin, am I, just wasting time,


Are you ever gonna need me baby, like I need you,
Are you ever gonna want me baby, the way I want you to,
I know that you love me,
And oh I know down deep you do,
But are you ever gonna love me,
Are you ever gonna love me,
The way I love you