why, now, out of all the fucking times
why pick now for me to be this sick.
my tonsils are the size of my indx fingers and i've actually never seen them until today. they keep swelling and its almost impossible for me to swallow and im having trouble breathing.
i have way to much riding on me right now.
i cant get sick and let the drumline/band down.
i cant let my teachers and mom down.
i can't miss school.
fuck fuck fuck fuck.
i just want to cry.
and i never cry.
crying is for the weak.