Lately I've been overwhelmed with this lust.
It's not like me to feel this way,
Whenever I watch a romance
In movies, on tv, in books
Sometimes it's uncomfortable,
It's like, I want that.
I want to fall in love,
I want to spend time with him,
I want to hold his hand;
touch his lips..
And I have this great fear that it will never happen.
Not to me. No.
I'm just plain and not much to look at;
eyebrows un plucked,
teeth not that dazzling white like in the movies,
the pudginess all over me.
But I don't want to have to change for that.
But I want that.
I don't know what to do with it; that feeling...
I don't know who I'm telling this, that's why it's blank up there,
I didn't know who I should tell about this, without feeling uncomfortable,
So I decided to tell... the world?