I'm normally a really smart girl. I over analyze everything and I do really really love you. but what am I supposed to do? I waited for you while you were in boot camp for 6 months. LIVING IN YR LETTERS, surviving from phone call to phone call. and now yr locked up again. and I don't know how long for this time. so don't be mad at me when you found out what I did tonight. you know biladue and I have had a thing before. so I don't really think it should be that big of a suprise. you shouldn't find out. idk you probably won't actually. seeing as how he has a girlfriend and if I get in another fight I get put on probation 'cause I fight too fucking much. anddd felica and jessica and mike won't snitch on us. but idk. I feel like a whore. and not only do I feel like a whore, I feel nothing.
I've felt so fucking numb latley. not going to school,
and smoking and doing coke everyday will do that to you.
I thought you'de come back sooner.