And i'm so fucking sorry to have hurt you so much.
I think everything will be ok, i really do, I'm ok but i don't know how to fix things so you're ok too. All I can do is say sorry things turned out like this. I realise that when something breaks, it can only be glued together, not completely fixed, so cracks will always be visible.
I just wish i hadn't had such high expectations in everybody. I wish nothing had broken in the first place.
I wish I could turn back time, but i can't, and i think the only thing to do is just smile and keep going, that's what im doing now, and it seems to have worked a little. Just smile and keep going, everything will be ok.