deadlynessdtcom (deadlynessdtcom) wrote in _letterstoyou_,
deadlynessdtcom
deadlynessdtcom
_letterstoyou_

I've been analysing everything over and over in my head, and I've come to the conclusion that everything was my fault. Not initialy, or purposefuly, but in the end of the day, if there were certain things I hadnt said, or if i hadn't trusted certain people or expected so much in people, then none of this shit would have happened. Well, alot would have, but not half so much.
And i'm so fucking sorry to have hurt you so much.
I think everything will be ok, i really do, I'm ok but i don't know how to fix things so you're ok too. All I can do is say sorry things turned out like this. I realise that when something breaks, it can only be glued together, not completely fixed, so cracks will always be visible.
I just wish i hadn't had such high expectations in everybody. I wish nothing had broken in the first place.
I wish I could turn back time, but i can't, and i think the only thing to do is just smile and keep going, that's what im doing now, and it seems to have worked a little. Just smile and keep going, everything will be ok.

Niamh
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