I have suffered two deaths in less than one week and it has brought much damage. I deal with it as if nothing has happened on the outside, but on the inside I am dying. I have never felt such loss in my life. I have lost many, but not two at the same time. I have been suffering inside, but no one knows. People don't realize what death does to some people. It has been about a week before her death and about two weeks before his. I miss them and will always think of them no matter what.