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_chaotictears_ We miss you, we love you, go to the angels and be not in pain anymore.
News article about her death
does anybody have any songs on this matter? music helps me cope. thanks
I am sorry. If I could only explain to you the pain that I suffer everyday thinking of you. If I could only fix everything. I might have been able to save you. I would only be delaying the pain longer. I am sorry for everything that you see.
I just want you to know that I am trying to recover. I have good days only to come home and realize nothing is the same and nothing will ever be okay. I miss you. I love you. I am sorry.
I think the hardest thing for me is that I never got to say good-bye.
I miss him all the time. All day, all night. Thoughts of him pop into my head constantly. There's a piece of me that is still waiting for him to call me...for me to see him walking down the street.
One of the things I miss the most about him is the way his hand felt in mine. He was very sweet, and would hold my hand all the time, and kiss my hand. We had dinner with his parents this one night, and he was cute...he grabbed my hand under the table, and kept my hand on his thigh the entire time. I miss that.
I thought I was ready for marriage, for life with him by my side. It's hard for me to go to friend's weddings and even get togethers. I see happy couples, and a piece of me just dies inside.
And while the first year after his death was hard, I was so numb...this year is harder. His absence is more pronounced, but I miss him the same. I just miss him.
One year this coming Wednesday. One year ago you changed me forever. You left a hole in me, like a jigsaw puzzle missing that one piece right in the center. Sometimes I hurt so much it feels like their is an animal inside of me trying to rip out.
I hate you. I love you. I miss you.
And I can't even find the words.
It's just so sad, knowing what life was like with her in my life.
It's sad, knowing what life will continue to be like without her in my life.
A year ago, last January, my Grandmother died. No one is certain what caused it, but I'm certain that her emphazema due to smoking was the bringing of her downfall. I know it's not healthy to still be this effected by it, but I feel bad. For nine years of my life I was no more than a mile away from her. I loved her dearly and she did I. But after I started going to college we slipped further and further apart.
It's not my wish that I had spent more time with her, I know I Was doing what I thought I wanted to, and she understood that. I just wish I had taken the time to chat with her, even if it was only online. So few have a chance to know their grandparents, REALLY know them. Even fewer can do so, so easily. I hate myself every day how much I took that for granted, because now it's gone. Her birthday would've been just last thursday (10/12), and so I reflect on this all.
Godspeed gram, we all know you're doing much much better now.