I'm baking some cookies and fudge tomorrow, hopefully I'll be able to control myself...
I can't update with pictures, or exact CW, because... we don't have a scale. Plus, I don't take full-body shots. Not since that one time at the beach. My HW is 160 [worse than before =(], but I also have a lot of muscle (which weighs more than fat), so I don't know. I really want to be down to 120, but I think it's going to be tough for me. I hate losing muscle, but that 6 up there is mocking me, constantly. I'm assuming I'm at about 145 now, which would be... better, at least.
I just found this, http://www.healthrecipes.com/juicefastingdiet.htm, which has been sort of interesting to read.
I'm stuck because I know what I'm doing to my body is horrible, yet... I can't eat anything without feeling disgusting. At the staff christmas party on the 17th, I was laughing, eating, having fun, and just as I was about to bite my boyfriend's hamburger (it was literally half in my mouth, not yet bitten), I got this horrible fear, and something said to me, "You're a pig. They don't want to see you eating like this." I finally convinced my boyfriend that I had to purge, because he said I'd make up for it later. So, it's been since the 17th since a purge, but I haven't been on any binges either, so it's all right, I suppose.
Long-winded and confusing. Sorry, girls. Have a great night =)