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Tue, Sep. 15th, 2009, 01:06 am
fleakfragfry: this confusion

My wife and I don't believe in gender. Not really. Sometimes it seems like the whole world is so hung up on gender, so afraid of their own sexuality. We both have this insatiable desire for personal/sexual expression, but in this society, that tends to translate into apprehension, fear, and antisocial behavior. Way back in the stoneage (remember the 90's?) there was this freak badge of honor many of us loved to wear. Turns out all those freaky kids were really just a bunch of squares. And to tell the truth, I'm tired of feeling like a freak. I'm not a freak. I'm just a human who has an understanding of my own primal nature. Or some bullshit like that. Not to get all serious, I mean, I don't really take myself all that seriously, and I certainly can't call myself gay, or straight, or trans, and lately I don't even feel comfortable calling myself queer. I used to say I was a dike, but that's not right either. I don't wanna call myself anything. I don't want to call you anything either. Does this frustrate anyone else? If there's safety in numbers, is there any hope for our sense of security and acceptance?

Tue, Sep. 15th, 2009 05:50 pm (UTC)
fleakfragfry

Oh yeah, that's exactly how I feel. It's not exactly a regular point of conversation for me, and it's not anyone's business unless I'm close to them. But at the same time, it would be nice to be able to chill with like-minded people in person, you know? I go online, and there's tons of people who follow that pansexual mindset. But when it comes to meeting people in the meatsphere, it's like walking into the dark ages. Do you have friends who share similar points of view, or identities? It just seems as though people of this sort of vague sexuality/social attitude are peppered so thinly across the globe. Thanks for the reply.