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Monday, June 29th, 2009

Posted by:ladybugzzz89.
Time:8:50 pm.
Hey peoples! New here.

I just dropped a nother group that was Ana/mia and I got so fed up with all the drama and hate towards eachother. I'm hoping that this group will be difforent since it's only mia's. I'm so sick of ana girls. they honestly have a totally difforent mind set than mia girls. I don't even know why they classify us together. We're soooo difforent.
Anyways!!!! I'm really happy to be here and around other people that share my same issues. I've been bulimic since frashmen year in high school and now i'm into my sophomore year of college so that's what... six years??? Yeah, that's about right.

I'm not thin... i'm not fat either. Just a typical Bulimic. I look totally healthy, but if only people knew. pfff.

anyway...my boyfriend just got home so i got to go.

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Friday, June 26th, 2009

Posted by:bethystar2.
Time:9:09 pm.
how do you make urself purge x i need help
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Thursday, July 5th, 2007

Subject:Getting better
Posted by:miss_diorela.
Time:11:26 am.
When i first started dieting and formed anorexia/bulimia traits, i stopped menstruating! It's been 2 years now and i recently had a checkup to find out the reason for this problem, i was shocked to hear that my fertility percentage was 56 whereas a 110 is normal and a 35 is menopause. I am 17 years old and was so shocked to hear that i might not have my own kids if i continue to starve and purge... Therefore, i chose to get better without the help of any professionals but find it hard to cope with the comments people say to me about how i gained weight and so on.... Plz i need support and help from recovering bulimia nervosa sufferers. :)
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Tuesday, December 5th, 2006

Subject:New ^.^
Posted by:mikka_6767.
Time:5:15 pm.
Mood: cold.
Hey people, I just stumbled upon the great place. I think it's awesome there is a community like this. My name is Mikka and I've been bulimic for about 2 years now. I am from Finland, but I am staying with my Godmother in Canada right now. I'll give you my stats,

CW: 182 (I know, I hate it)
HW: 220
LW: 140
GW: 150
GW2: 120

At 5'7.
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Monday, December 4th, 2006

Subject:hey everyone
Posted by:xoxkbfdxox.
Time:11:46 pm.
i have been throwing up for a while now, but im finding that it is harder to throw up each time i do it. it is bugging the shit out of me.
what do you do when you throw up?
any tips to help make it come up?
and do you get horrible headaches afterwards? if so what do you do about it?

i would really appreciate any advice!
thanks everyone!
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Sunday, October 29th, 2006

Posted by:iwillbthin88.
Time:6:30 pm.
Once again I hated myself
Once again I wanted to die

The only light I could see was to get this food out of me

I sared once again into the toilet bowl and
the toothbrush made it's way down my throat
Out came the toothbrush and out came the food
The darkness didn't seem quite so dark

The only light I could see was to get this food out of me

again finding it's way to the back of my throat
my eyes began to water and my noes began to run
Out came the toothbrush and out came the food
The darkness now was much brighter

The only light I could see was to get this food out of me

Saliva caused the toothbrush to be slippery
and blisters formed between my fingers
Out came the toothbrush and out came the food
Oh, darkness where have you gone?

The only light I could see was to get this food out of me

The cold hard solid floor beneth my knees
caused them bruise like a 2 year old who fell
Out came the toothbrush out came the food
Maybe there is some light...

The only light I could see was to get this food out of me

Once agin the toothbrush reaching deep into my throat
My mind focused on the food that was to come out
not of the toothbrush that was to go in
The brissels at my finger tips slowly slipped away
and the toothbrush was soon to be no longer

Was I not ment to choke?
Was it not ment to hurt?
Shouldn't I be dead?

Apparently not... I was to live

The hand of the nurse held mine as the doctors put me to sleep
How could I accept her kindness
I was undeserving of love

Im ok now

There's no point warning a bulimic of the dangers of bulimia
She already knows them
There's no point tell here that being fat doesn't matter
She can't hear you
There's no point telling her how skinny she looks
She wont listen

Just be there to hold her hand
and don't try to understand
It doesn't make sense
Not even to her
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Saturday, August 19th, 2006

Posted by:hbkkassandrahbk.
Time:10:38 pm.
Hey guys,

Name" Kassandra
Age: 14
HW: 206
LW: 150
CW: 190
GW: 120

Ok, this happened because I've had 4 hip surgeries. 1st when I was 11, last one July 19th. Haven't been able to do much for 3 years. i really want to beautiful, for me and my hip. I've been this way for about a year. I also have a question. Tonight is frickin' SummerSlam. (WWE PPV) Now I love it, and have been looking forward to it. But we get 2 XLP's, cheesy bread, kickers, and coke from Domino's. And I have to eat it. There's no way out of it. Does anyone have any advice as how to purge without fingers or a toothbrush? It's all i've been using. If you drink beer for the first time will it make you purge? Ok, tried to keep this on topic.

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Wednesday, July 19th, 2006

Posted by:iwillbthin88.
Time:2:51 pm.
Does anyone ever run into periods where they find it hard to purge? Coz ill be going so well and the food will come up so easily then the next day im like choking myself to get the food out. Why does this happen, maybey its coz i don't drink enough while im eating. Tell me does this happen to anyone else or do i just suck?
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Thursday, March 23rd, 2006

Posted by:autumnofmyennui.
Time:8:47 pm.
I reopened the community by the way so...post away.
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Friday, June 17th, 2005

Subject:Sorry guys, I feel like reaching out so bad. Sorry this is X-posted, I hate that shit.
Posted by:made_to_order.
Time:5:14 pm.
Hey guys. It's me. I just feel so drained right now, i can't stop crying. I got out of inpatient awhile ago, and denied keeping my disease. I thought I was descreetly loosing weight but my stepmother just came in and she called my job (the only thing that means anything to me. I mean, I'm down for everything, but now I'm comtemplating suicide) and told them I need a few weeks off, and she's telling me basicly unless she thinks I'm recovered that I can't work or see my friends or have any right to be alive. I keep screaming. I. NEED. MY. JOB. She keeps telling me graduating high school doesn't even matter.
Legally, what can I do? Do you think there would be any circumstances where I can move out. If I moved out, I could afford rent and still attend school last year I managed 15 hour shifts, a more than fulkll time under the table job and full timne high school. I loved every minute of it.
So far I've denied the disorder, said I'm recovered. She tells me she knows I'm having trouble with drugs (They haven't., as in nobody has, caught me with drugs in a year) she says I'm lying, (I finally told my father what I think of him, that he's a bad father and he makes me feel like shit all of the time, and I told her she's a controlling manipulative workaholic and she needs to get off my back) because I finally told my family how I really feel. I just don't have the balls to actually get up and be like, "I REALLY THINK THAT."
My dad laughed when I told him he wasn't perfect, no scratch that. He scoffed.
I have to stop writing about this. I feel like binging the more I think about it. I'm just gonna turn on a movie and fall asleep.
But seriously guys. Here's the deal
1)I need my job
2)My BMI is 16.5
3)I don't have the balls to admit to my parents when I was younger I was lying, I'm finally admitting to how I really feel.
4)They have planned 39284904235 vacations where I would not be able to escape them.
5)They want me on medication
6)I have the means ($$ and a place and roommates that need me. Could love me) to move out, but not legally.

Any suggestions?
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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005

Posted by:gossamer_thin.
Time:12:06 pm.

height: 5'7
Weight: around 130
stgw: 125
ltgw: 118

These are in some kind of order:

These are all pre-ED..Collapse )

And then I realized I was FATCollapse )

Me at my thinnestCollapse )
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Thursday, June 9th, 2005

Posted by:x_transcendence.
Time:12:27 pm.
I'm in history. having our 2 hour long end of the year "party." I don't know anybody in this class, and there's nothing to distract me from eating everything in sight. Besides the fact that I don't want to gain 400 pounds.

Someone IM me and keep me busy.

AIM: HomieBeatsDottie
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Monday, June 6th, 2005

Posted by:gossamer_thin.
Time:9:10 am.
I've been between 132 and 136 for the past week or so.

Been eating little amounts throughout the day, sometimes purging at night.

I did not have counselling all week, so I think I relapsed or whatever because I just feel like I never got help and everything's the same. Here's some new pictures:

You kill me wellCollapse )
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Sunday, May 29th, 2005

Posted by:this_thin.
Time:5:22 pm.
Mood: pissed off.
well I am extremely pissed off so bad right now. I binged like crazy, i added it all up and ate 1405 calories..how horrible is that, as of right now, i am purging with laxatives, i didn't vomit bc my glands are sore from getting over a cold, so i used laxatives. But, I am 139 right now and I feel so fat right now...ahh.....justd a 2 pound loss, it makes me feel so bad right now...!
well my 270 pounds sister is going around and telling everyone that she is anorexic, and it's so obvious to see that she sure the hell is NOT anorexic...she's a fat cow, and i hate the bitch, im sorry but I don't think that it is right for someone that fat to go around and tell everyone that she is anorexic because it's extremely wrong and it's insulting us all who are real anorexic! Well, it insults me, I don't know about you all, but it just pisses me off!
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Wednesday, May 25th, 2005

Subject:...and i really don't care if i never wake up again.
Posted by:paperxdollx.
Time:2:33 am.
Mood: discontent.
i guess i should put this under a cut. i'm very sorry in advance to whoever reads this....if anyone reads this anymore.yet another FUCKING rant. i'm sorry..Collapse )

i need a hug. LIZ WANTS A FUCKING HUG. i'm crying again. this time even harder. what the FUCKING HELL. i wish someone was online. anyone. someone i could talk to, bitch to. vent to.

i'd love to do that, yet i don't want to. i hate bothering others, burdening them with my shit. i just want to curl up and cry. i want to be held. i miss erik. miss him so fucking much. i just want to be held by him and let myself bloody well cry. i HATE crying, but i want to. i don't want to be asked any questions, or have to explain myself. i just..ugh. i want to feel loved. i need a hug. some sort of comfort. i want to smell his cologne, and feel his arms around me. i want to have him kiss my forhead, and hold my hand in his. fuck i want that so bad right now. i really do. i hate saying that, i hate admitting it.. liz wants comfort. fucking badly!!!!!! >.< i just want to feel safe and secure, calm. crying again. i just want to be told everything will be ok, and that it's fine...... even if it isn't.

i need that so badly...

[x-posted to my blog, and a couple other communities. sorry..]
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Monday, May 23rd, 2005

Posted by:gossamer_thin.
Time:9:57 pm.
Old username:x_transcendenceCollapse )
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Tuesday, May 24th, 2005

Posted by:sophmia.
Time:6:44 pm.
He girls!
Ive got a new goal: being down to 116 till june 11th any ideas how to do this the best way? Im 130(!!) right now...
helpw ould be so aprechiated!
Love you all! xox Sophia
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Monday, May 23rd, 2005

Posted by:sophmia.
Time:4:44 pm.
Start of a new week today!
What are everyones plans for this week?
Love xox Sophia
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Wednesday, May 18th, 2005

Posted by:ysanchez23.
Time:9:05 pm.
Mood: productive.
Thank you so much for accepting me to this community. Hopefully we'll grow and I'll be able to consol in the group here.


Today: All I've had were two mini Milky Ways, 3 Diet Dr. Peppers and gum. ^_^ I'm so proud of myself. I'm about to take a sleeping pill right now so I can sleep my hunger away. I weighed myself today and I'm 131lbs. (5'2")

Evee - again.
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Sunday, May 15th, 2005

Posted by:this_thin.
Time:11:50 pm.
My fat ass whore as a sister with a cutting problem who freaking weighs 265 pounds told my parents that she is anorexic and bulimic, my lord, she is far from it, she has never used laxatives, and never make herself vomit, my lord...LIAR..as you can see, she has NEVER starved herself! My goodness gracious..she will do anything for attention, I mean she doesn't meet the criteria for either of those eating disorders, I even follow her to the bathroom...no water running, no gagging noises, no blood shot eyes...AHH, no malnutrition for sure...I love her to death, and I know she has a cutting problem, but none of those two eating disorders, and I know it's not her fault that she is over weight, because the abilify she takes make her gain weight and rise her hunger craves, but I wish she would stop lying for the attention..my goodness...I know at first when I was 230 pounds, I didn't meet the criteria, but I'm getting there, I'm 141 now, but my sister is a liar, she doesn't do any of that, all she does is cuts, and yes, I love her and wish she didn't do it, but I just don't love her lies.
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