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ED Survey
put "x" in box that applies to you

[x]Even though people tell me I'm thin, I feel fat.

[x]I get anxious if I can't exercise.

[x][Female] My menstrual periods are irregular or absent.
[Male] My sex drive is not as strong as it used to be.

[x]I worry about what I will eat.

[x]If I gain weight, I get anxious and depressed.

[x]rather eat by myself than with family or friends.

[x]other people talk about the way I eat

[x]I get anxious when people urge me to eat

[x]I don't talk much about my fear of being fat because no one understands how I feel.

[x]I enjoy cooking for others, but I usually don't eat what I've cooked.

[x]I have a secret stash of food.

[x]When I eat, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop.


[xxxxxx]I lie about what I eat.(to parents)

[x]I don't like to be bothered or interrupted when I'm eating.

[x]If I were thinner, I would like myself better.  (Okay, I probably wouldn't in truth, but sometimes I feel I would)


[x]I like to read recipes, cookbooks, calorie charts, and books about dieting and exercise.

I have missed work or school because of my weight or eating habits.

[x]I tend to be depressed and irritable.

[xxxxxx]I feel guilty when I eat. 

[x]I avoid some people because they bug me about the way I eat.

[xxx]When I eat, I feel bloated and fat.

[x]My eating habits and fear of food interfere with friendships or romantic relationships.

[xx]I binge eat.

[x]I do strange things with my food (cut it into tiny pieces, eat it in special ways, eat it on special dishes with special utensils, make patterns on my plate with it, secretly throw it away, give it to the dog, hide it, spit it out before I swallow, etc.)

[xxx]I get anxious when people watch me eat.

[xxx]I am hardly ever satisfied with myself.

[xxvomitxxI vomit or take laxatives to control my weight.

[x]I want to be thinner than my friends.

[x]I have said or thought, "I would rather die than be fat."

I have stolen food, laxatives, or diet pills from stores or from other people.

[x]I have fasted to lose weight.

[x]In romantic moments, I cannot let myself go because I am worried about my fat and flab.

I have noticed one or more of the following:
[xxxxx]cold hands and feet
[x]dry skin
[x]thinning hair
[x]fragile nails
[x]swollen glands in my neck
-dental cavities
[x]dizziness
[x]weakness
[xx]fainting
[x]rapid or irregular heartbeat
light!kitten

New member here.

I'm a new member for this site, and I am fairly knowledgeable when it comes to self-injury and self-harm.

This mainly includes: cutting, carving, burning, eating disorders, beating, and other similar forms of harm and injury.

I am here to talk to, to come to for advice, just to listen, or I can even provide site addresses that may help. I'm not a psychologist. I won't judge anyone, for I myself have done many of these things and still do, and I can't cure anyone. But I care, and I can help you heal. I can be a friend. I understand.

It sounds cliche`/corny/cheesy, but it's true. I'll try to help anyone.

(no subject)

Okay.
I'd really appreciate advice right about now.

So, I've been raped and sexually assaulted before. On a couple occasions.

Ever since, I've had hardcore flashbacks with every person I've ever been with, and have been scared to initiate anything with a guy in fear of what they'd do to me.
I always told myself that I'd need to find a guy that was okay with me being distant sometimes because the flashbacks were too much to handle while doing shit with them.
but now i've found a guy that i've been dating for about two/three months now and i haven't got one flashback around him, i haven't been afraid around him, and it's nothing like with the other guys.

Do you think it's a good idea to tell him that it's different with him, or just wait it out? He knows that I've been raped before because of a conversation we had and I had to tell him... but should I elaborate on how i get flashbacks and have gotten flashbacks with everyone but him? or should I just leave it at the fact i've been sexually assaulted?

I mean, if you were in his position... would you want to know?.. and would you want to know it now... or later down the road?



this is xposted to other journals, for i need all the advice i can get, i'm so lost now.
Joan of Arcadia

(no subject)

ED Survey
Bold all those that apply.

Even though people tell me I'm thin, I feel fat.

I get anxious if I can't exercise.

[Female] My menstrual periods are irregular or absent.
[Male] My sex drive is not as strong as it used to be.

I worry about what I will eat.

If I gain weight, I get anxious and depressed.

rather eat by myself than with family or friends.

other people talk about the way I eat

I get anxious when people urge me to eat

I don't talk much about my fear of being fat because no one understands how I feel.

I enjoy cooking for others, but I usually don't eat what I've cooked.

I have a secret stash of food.

When I eat, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop.


I lie about what I eat.(to parents)

I don't like to be bothered or interrupted when I'm eating.

If I were thinner, I would like myself better.  (Okay, I probably wouldn't in truth, but sometimes I feel I would)


I like to read recipes, cookbooks, calorie charts, and books about dieting and exercise.

I have missed work or school because of my weight or eating habits.

I tend to be depressed and irritable.

I feel guilty when I eat.  (sometimes. I'm getting better about it, so not so much I used to)

I avoid some people because they bug me about the way I eat.

When I eat, I feel bloated and fat.

My eating habits and fear of food interfere with friendships or romantic relationships.

I binge eat.

I do strange things with my food (cut it into tiny pieces, eat it in special ways, eat it on special dishes with special utensils, make patterns on my plate with it, secretly throw it away, give it to the dog, hide it, spit it out before I swallow, etc.)

I get anxious when people watch me eat.

I am hardly ever satisfied with myself.

I vomit or take laxatives to control my weight.

I want to be thinner than my friends.

I have said or thought, "I would rather die than be fat."

I have stolen food, laxatives, or diet pills from stores or from other people.

I have fasted to lose weight.

In romantic moments, I cannot let myself go because I am worried about my fat and flab.

I have noticed one or more of the following:
-cold hands and feet
-dry skin
-thinning hair
-fragile nails
-swollen glands in my neck
-dental cavities
-dizziness
-weakness
-fainting
-rapid or irregular heartbeat

(no subject)

i'm not meaning to just like, advertise... but if you enjoy writing and like hearing what others have to say, you should join writersunite i started it today, and i think if people joined and stuff, it could end up pretty sweet.

in other news, my boyfriend [of a year] and i broke up last night.
today is our anniversary. well, would be.
it was for the best and it was for good reasons, but i feel like shit.
bleh.
tank smoke

:)

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If you SI, used to, think about it, know someone who does, etc; feel free to join.
It isn't pro or anti SI, it for support, and support you *will* get there or could give.




It's like a big family more than anything, with new people coming
everyday & sometimes people feeling recovered enough to leave.

It is a safe place to go and let things out, ask for help/advice
or anything of that sort; and it will continue to be safe too.

Remember to read the rules if you join, they're easy to follow but very important. :)
Imagine Me & You

ED Survey

Stolen from rockin_me_babyED Survey
Bold all those that apply.

Even though people tell me I'm thin, I feel fat.

I get anxious if I can't exercise.

[Female] My menstrual periods are irregular or absent.

[Male] My sex drive is not as strong as it used to be.

I worry about what I will eat.

If I gain weight, I get anxious and depressed.

rather eat by myself than with family or friends.

other people talk about the way I eat

I get anxious when people urge me to eat

I don't talk much about my fear of being fat because no one understands how I feel.

I enjoy cooking for others, but I usually don't eat what I've cooked.

I have a secret stash of food.

When I eat, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop.


I lie about what I eat.

I don't like to be bothered or interrupted when I'm eating.

If I were thinner, I would like myself better.



I like to read recipes, cookbooks, calorie charts, and books about dieting and exercise.

I have missed work or school because of my weight or eating habits.

I tend to be depressed and irritable.

I feel guilty when I eat.

I avoid some people because they bug me about the way I eat.

When I eat, I feel bloated and fat.

My eating habits and fear of food interfere with friendships or romantic relationship
s.

I binge eat. (I've come close, but I've never had a REAL binge.)

I do strange things with my food (cut it into tiny pieces, eat it in special ways, eat it on special dishes with special utensils, make patterns on my plate with it, secretly throw it away, give it to the dog, hide it, spit it out before I swallow, etc.)

I get anxious when people watch me eat.

I am hardly ever satisfied with myself.


I vomit or take laxatives to control my weight. (I used to take laxies, but I stopped that...I'm thinking about starting with that again though.)

I want to be thinner than my friends.

I have said or thought, "I would rather die than be fat."


I have stolen food, laxatives, or diet pills from stores or from other people.

I have fasted to lose weight.

In romantic moments, I cannot let myself go because I am worried about my fat and flab.

I have noticed one or more of the following:
-cold hands and feet
-dry skin
-thinning hair

-fragile nails
-swollen glands in my neck
-dental cavities
-dizziness
-weakness

-fainting
-rapid or irregular heartbeat
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International Self-Injury Awareness Day

I don't know how many of you have heard about this, but it is very important: March 1st is International Self-Injury Awareness Day. That means SPREAD THE WORD. Misconceptions about self-injury in society are rampant. People need to be educated, especially authority figures. This means police, teachers, parents, medical workers, employers, and anyone else who can affect you in situations regarding SI.

There are a few things you can do to raise awareness.

1. Pamphlets. This is a very good way to reach people. You can put them up at school, work, in hospitals, police stations, supermarkets, libraries...the list goes on. It can really help.

2. Presentations. Organizing a forum where you can reach people face to face is a great idea. You can hold them for students, for parents, for medical workers, policement, local employers, general public...anything you like. I realize that probably no one will do something like this, but it's something to think about. It's a much more effective way of reaching people.

3. Contact your mayor, governor, MP (for Canadians), etc. Ask them to get involved. They can do things like wear ribbons (red and black), help with leaflets, etc. It's important to get community leaders involved.

4. Contact newspapers. Do a few letters to the editor, maybe write a research piece or an 'expose' so to speak. You can ask to remain anonymous, obviously, so privacy shouldn't be an issue. And hell, if you're really brave, get someone to do an interview with you.

5. Spread the word online. Send out messages on the major sites (LJ and MySpace, for instance). Go to communities, send PMs to random people, write articles, blog entries...anything. After all, communication is one of the main reasons for the internet's existence.


This is a chance for the issue to get a little bit of understanding, to shed a little light on it. Right now, this is a completely grassroots movement. Governments are not getting involved, and they need to be doing so. The only way that will happen is if March 1st becomes KNOWN to the world. And it's up to us to make sure that happens.

You don't have to do much. A pamphlet here, a ribbon there...it doesn't have to be a big campaign. But PLEASE, if you feel strongly about this issue, get involved somehow.

This will be x-posted to pretty much every SI and mental health community I can get my hands on.
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(no subject)

Hey girls. I haven't really updated in a while but, I just have to say, I am doing HORRIBLE with my weight!! I'm so disgusted with myself and now that I have a boyfriend, I want to get rid of this even more then I did before.

I was wondering, who uses diet pills and what do you use and how well do they work for you?? I really wanna try hydro-cut, not sure on the spelling....any advice please!!