idk it was so weird being alone, i didnt care tho..anything beats being at home. but like usual all good things come to an end and i ended up back at home, god dammit i am pissed aobut that.
right away when i got back i went to my room, its the one place that i like about my home, other than that nothing. mom is begingn to blame herself, but this isnt about her, its about me. god that sounds selfish but idk what else to say.
but yea today was bad....real bad. i began to cut...and i didnt know when to stop....but it felt so good u know?
i dont think ill ever get better...but maybe i dont want to..im so used to this life..if u can even call it that