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[24 Mar 2010|07:21am]
I see a loss of 1.8 from yesterday. I've lost over twenty pounds since I started my diet in early February. Yet I can feel the flab at my waistband. Disgusting.

I am six feet even and of a medium build. Currently at 144.2 pounds. My first goal is 125, with my minimum at 120. I will almost certainly be tempted to go lower.

What would be your ideal weight on a medium-sized man of 6 feet? And the minimum?

im bacccck. [22 Feb 2010|11:26am]

to those who don't know me, I'm Johnny. I used to be retrokiidx but I decided to start fresh. Hopefully I'm more active on here than I've been in the past. I really need someone to talk to about my eating problems, because I don't have anyone in my life that can relate to my problems. My eating habits are getting worse and worse and I feel it taking over my life. Not a day goes by without me stepping on a scale constantly or feeling like complete crap for the things I eat. Hopefully I can rely on this group for support, I really need it. Feel free to add me here, I'd love to talk to you guys :D
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introducing myself [20 Feb 2010|05:13pm]

Name: Matthew
Age: 22
Gender: Male
Sexual Orientation: Gay.
Height: 5'11"
Weight: 155#, which is the most I have weighed in the past year.
Location: The South
How long have you been struggling with your eating disorder?: Since last summer.
Are you anorexic, bulimic, or both? I alternate between periods of anorexia and non-purging bulimia/binge-eating. Midway through the summer I moved away from my friends to begin graduate school, and in my loneliness I too often turned to food for comfort. I moved here at the lowest weight of my life - 135#, having weighed 225# when I began college - but in the past months I have been in a terrible cycle. I will go into periods of uncontrollable, indulgent, eating, gaining several pounds in a single week. I can never bring myself to purge, so instead I will put myself on intense exercise regimens and fast for days at a time or severely restrict my eating. Until I lose control the next time. I believe that I have a mild case of manic-depression, and I think it is connected to my cycles of fasting and binging. Right now, I have ended a binging phase, and now weigh 155#. I am not happy with who I am right now, and I want to say that I have lost control for the last time. I am beginning a fast today, and will slowly re-introduce small meals into my diet once I am comfortable doing so. I do not know if I will have the willpower to do this, and I hope I will have your support.
Do you fast? If you have for how long?: See above. I will fast for up to three days at a time. I am beginning a new fast today, and I will continue it as long as I can.
Does anyone know about it?: No. But I think that acknowledging my lack of control and my desire to transform my body into something beautiful will give me the motivation I need. So I am counting on the support of this group.
Have you ever been hospitalized due to your eating disorder?: No.
What are your thoughts on eating disorders?: I sympathize with people who feel their disorders control them, because when I enter into the binging part of my cycle I am similarly out of control and I hate it. But I think that anorexia and bulimia can be powerful methods for people to regain control of their bodies and fashion themselves into the type of people they want to be.
Who do you look up to / admire? Ralph Waldo Emerson, Walt Whitman, Frederich Nietzsche, Albert Camus - all of these men understood the need to continually overcome themselves and their own weaknesses, to fashion their lives into something worth living and presenting to others.
Photos: To come. I will use them to monitor my progress.
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[08 Feb 2010|10:10pm]
Name: I prefer to use the name Ira.
Age: 30
Gender: Male by birth, although I prefer an androgynous identity.
Sexual Orientation: Homosexual, but celibate.
Height: 6'
Weight: Currently 161.4. I am recovering from my highest weight of 165, with the intention of reaching 125. My lowest weight as an adult was 111.
Location: New York
How long have you been struggling with your eating disorder?: My issues emerged at age eleven.
Are you anorexic, bulimic, or both?: I prefer to consider myself an an individual with anorexia nervosa, as the term anorexic signifies the lack of control. I use my anorexia as a tool to achieve the desires of my person, rather than the anorexia using me to its own ends. I have been bulimic in the past, but have not purged in over a year.
Do you fast? If you have for how long?: When I was an anorexic I would frequently eat nothing for days. However, as I am prone to fainting, I've never fasted more than four consecutive days. Now, I consider a fast to be a day with one small meal. I would rather not risk permanent biological damage that extended fasts may induce.
Does anyone know about it?: Various medical professionals. I am uncertain of anyone else, though it has certainly been obvious in the past.
Have you ever been hospitalized due to your eating disorder?: No. Ambulances have been called for me during fainting spells, but it was never explicitly due to my eating disorder.
What are your thoughts on eating disorders?: I have addressed this above.
Who do you look up to / admire? Sherlock Holmes. Santiago Ramón y Cajal. Lord Byron. Mary Shelley. Nikola Tesla.
Photos: I apologize and plead anonymity.

fatty [22 Jan 2010|04:33pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

 I've lost track of time and now everythings fucked up
i havent been on lj in forever :/
im such a failure
i got down to my goal weight for maybe 3 days
and then i got all fat again :(
its really disheartening
im 5' 6-7" and 102 lbs..
ive been single for so long
i thought maybe id find someone to love me once i was down to 90,
but it didnt last..
and now im fat and alone..

this sucks,

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help, please? [24 Oct 2009|10:30pm]

Hey everyone(:

Do any of you guys know any over-the-counter medicines that work really, really good at eliminating your appetite?

I need help =/

Pleasee respond?(:
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Food.Yuck. [17 Oct 2009|06:50pm]

[ mood | hungry ]

I'm eating nothing but safe foods this weekend. I want to lose about 5 pounds by next Saturday. It's 2 pm and all I've had to eat was an apple (and lots of water, of course). I really need to get out of the house before I give in. Food is the only thing that's on my mind right now, and a piece of chicken on the counter has caught my eye. Ugh, this sucks.

I must be strongggg!

Well, talk soon. I'm gonna go to the library and try to get food off my mind by staying busyy.

Hope everything's going well with you guys!(:


my goal for today. [13 Oct 2009|04:07pm]

So today is Tuesday, one of the days I don't eat on. I feel myself starting to get hungry now at 4:08 pm. It's easier not eating at school. I just dont go to the lunchroom. But here at home it's so hard! My mom's cooking now, and she hardly ever cooks on the weekdays! Why did she pick today to cook? I'm going to try my hardest not to eat.

All I need is my ice water and my gum and I'll be fine.
I have to keep myself busy. I'm going to do all my homework tonight even though it isn't due for a few days.

That should hold off until about 8. I'll probably be tired by that time and end up going to sleep.

Don't eat.
Anything but eat.

I'll feel like a complete piece of shit if I can't committ to this one little goal I've made for myself. Food doesn't control my life. I do . It's time to take back what this obsession has taken from me.

My body.
My mind.
My spirit.

I can't give in.

On top of that, I'll end up binging and purging if I do eat, and I fucking hate that! It's the worst feeling ever! Not having control over something like eating. And purging is starting to hurt. I'm trying to avoid that as much as possible.

Wish me luck guys, I can do this :D
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im back [12 Oct 2009|11:04pm]

 okay, so i havent been on LJ in forever.
long story short, during the summer, my parents found out that i self harm,
they sent me to a therapist,
i talked to the chick and said some stuff i shouldnt have...
this escalated to me being forced to stay @ the hospital in the funny farm for a couple days
for bs like suicidal ideation and whatever.
my parents went through my computer
and they found some questionable things, such as this community bookmarked,
and other stuff..
so they took away the internet.
i got a phone that is internet enabled over the weekend,
so im once again up to no good ;)
but i still dont have internet on my comp, so i think my eyesight is gonna fail because of the tiny letters on my phones screen lol.
im 97 lbs now; i have to be really careful though,
so i have to wear weights at the doc and stuff..

so yeah... if you joined after my "hiatus" say hiiii :D

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app. [12 Oct 2009|11:37am]

Name: Johnny
Age: 16
Gender: Male..haha
Sexual Orientation: Bi.
Height: 5'12
Weight: 197...godd i'm fucking hugeee! :\ I was 220 a few months ago if that makes it any better =|
Location: Chicago, IL.
How long have you been struggling with your eating disorder?: Since...June.
Are you anorexic, bulimic, or both?: Both.
Do you fast? If you have for how long?: I'm a binge eater so that fails tbh.
Does anyone know about it?: Nope.
Have you ever been hospitalized due to your eating disorder?: Nope.
What are your thoughts on eating disorders?: It's hard. It's a struggle. And those to who make fun of it should fuck off. It also makes me feels better about my appearence to see those pounds drop.
Who do you look up to / admire? Zac Efron, Ed Westwick, Chace Crawford, David Beckham, the list goes on and on...goddd they're fitt.
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[11 Oct 2009|12:37pm]

does anyone in here ever use laxatives? someone told me that this guy that i always noticed had a really great body was secretly taking laxatives. i don't know if it's true or not, but it made me want to start.
what are some of the negative side-effects? any real reason that i shouldn't?
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application [09 Oct 2009|06:26pm]

[ mood | energetic ]

Name: PJ
Sexual Orientation: gay
Height: 5' 10"
Weight: 125lbs (lowest 118lbs)
Location: NY
How long have you been struggling with your eating disorder?: 8 years.
Are you anorexic, bulimic, or both?: anorexic
Do you fast? If you have for how long?:Yes, 2 weeks.
Does anyone know about it?: yes, anorexic boyfriend ( he is 25 5'11" 104lbs)
Have you ever been hospitalized due to your eating disorder?:No
What are your thoughts on eating disorders?: I like it gives me control
Who do you look up to / admire? My B/F.


[22 Sep 2009|12:51am]

Stay pretty!

You'll be pretty!

One apple a day keeps diet away.

93! Anorexia is free.
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[23 Jul 2009|03:11am]

Name:Zach Parker
Gender: Female. What the hell else would I be in a community called Anorexic Boys. I'm male.
Sexual Orientation: Gay all the way, baby. Pussy skeeves me out.
Height: Around 5'10 last I checked
Weight: Undisclosed, but it's over 170, I'll tell ya that much
Location: Ninth Circle Of Hell aka Suburbs of Nashville, TN
How long have you been struggling with your eating disorder?: About 4 months. I've just recently acquired one, but currently looking to kick it up a few notches.
Are you anorexic, bulimic, or both?: Both, mostly Anorexic
Do you fast? If you have for how long?: Starting at the beginning of August. We'll see how long..... Other than that, did a 2 day water fast in May.
Does anyone know about it?: No.
Have you ever been hospitalized due to your eating disorder?:No, but I have for a suicide attempt, swallowing almost a whole bottle of Trazadone.
What are your thoughts on eating disorders?: I'm torn.
Who do you look up to / admire?: Augusten Burroughs
Photos:Maybe once I look like Kellan Lutz, you'll see some.
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diet pills? [21 Jul 2009|02:58am]

 im thinking of trying them.
anyone have any ideas how i could get them when im not 18 yet?
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How does everyone fast for so long? [01 Jul 2009|05:21am]

I've not been eating well lately. It's actually only half by choice. I'm pretty broke and I'm using this as opportunity to have less food around the house. But it's really easy to get in trouble that way. I go a day with only one meal, or skip eating all day entirely and every time I stand up, I my vision blacks out and I know that if I don't sit down, I'll pass out. I get really strong headaches that I know are from low blood-sugar. And my body feels ridiculously weak. I drink plenty of water hoping that'll help somehow, but it really doesn't.
How do some of you make it more than a day without . . . dying??
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