12/11/05 07:31 pm - xlovely_bonesxx
please fel free to deleate if it isnt allowed
if you have an ED and live in Europe please join
9/13/05 10:27 am - bloodyaiden - xposted
how do i break the plateau? i'm afraid to fast because it will ruin my metabolism. is that the only way to break it?
8/10/05 04:21 pm - foodistheenemy
fast is broken cause im a fat w.hore
ive eaten an apple and 10-15 ricecakes and 2 diet cokes today
walked to the shops for my diet coke breakfast again
mum doesnt allow diet coke in the house cause she knows if its arroun, that would beall i would eat.
so i have to go to the shops when shes at work to get a can :<
im never going to loose weight
im going to be fat forever
esepcially if i eat ricecakes and fruit and veg :<
i dont deserve any food
7/28/05 12:59 pm - soft_implosion - xposted
My Food Phone (saw this on the news)
7/12/05 11:08 pm - just_a_medicine - yet another MOD POST
this will be the last public post,
from now on any entry that isnt friends only will be deleted.
7/12/05 09:20 pm - just_a_medicine - another mod post
Hmm.. sorry to make 2 posts so close to eachother, but im thinking of getting a second Mod.
I am so tired tonight. I'm not sure why, lately I haven't had alot of engergy. As much as I love summer it seems to drain alot of my energy.Anyway I rediscovered fitday today and I love that site. Its so helpfull because it keeps track of everything I want it to. The movie hunger point was on tonight and I love that movie. Its so sad and yet I understand shellie so well. She never really wanted to recover and yet living with an ed, living her life wasn't possible either. The only thing that kind of kicked/tickled my pickle were the pro-ana sites because they weren't in the book. I just realized something this weekend there have been a ton of ed movies on tv, last night there were 2 and today 1. I mean usually there isn't even one on. I wonder why theres been so many on lately. Maybe a conidence? I'm sorry this post is so random. Thats what happens when your tired....
I had a great week, but I must have failed somewhere. Why? I actually got my period today, I diddn't get it last month and was hopping not to see it yet. I don't know why it makes me feel so much like a faulure. Its such a normal thing and yet I hate it, I feel so dirty when it comes. Well anyway, what do I do? I head right back to the food to b/p. arg why is food the first thing I think of? And purging the second. Its strange you know, how most people who say binge are refering to alchol (at least in my family) but I always mean food. Oh I have one piece of advice to anyone who faints easily - don't take your blood pressure at the store. I did yesterday and I almost fainted in the store (I got really lightheaded). Not much else, I'm not interesting (nor is this post but)....
7/2/05 12:51 pm - leftoff
i have a kidney infection from purging and it's pretty much the worst pain i've ever felt