how do i break the plateau? i'm afraid to fast because it will ruin my metabolism. is that the only way to break it?
fast is broken cause im a fat w.hore
ive eaten an apple and 10-15 ricecakes and 2 diet cokes today
walked to the shops for my diet coke breakfast again
mum doesnt allow diet coke in the house cause she knows if its arroun, that would beall i would eat.
so i have to go to the shops when shes at work to get a can :<
im never going to loose weight
im going to be fat forever
esepcially if i eat ricecakes and fruit and veg :<
i dont deserve any food
this will be the last public post,
from now on any entry that isnt friends only will be deleted.
Hmm.. sorry to make 2 posts so close to eachother, but im thinking of getting a second Mod.
this community seems pretty dead.
for those of you who wish to remain a part of this community, and actually still read it, comment to this or otherwise be deleted off the members page.
any suggestions as to keep this thing alive, or make it betteR?
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